{"sf1_id":1004426,"sf2_id":"q1xrbN8m","title":"The Abyss - medium poem","author":"Fane_Vulpesaur","words":127,"posted_at":"2016-05-21T00:28:00.000Z","tags":["2015","Depression","FEELINGS","Poem","Poetry","SFW","Suicide","abyss","bipolar","sadness","stress","suicidal","vent","venting"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1004426-the-abyss-medium-poem","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/q1xrbN8m","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/cf/17/cf17b5c5-6420-4968-99d8-f6238bf4da29","description":"This is one of the few vent poems I've written. This one in particular has a bit of a story behind it. I've had issues with bipolar depression. So while I was at work one night at my old job I had a big depression swing. It was a busy night on top of it, so while I was on break I wrote this to vent. I feel like it's an accurate description of what my depression is like. I wrote this poem back in 2015.\nWritten by me, Fane Star.","content":"The darkness.\n\nIt surrounds me with its misery.\n\nAching, crying, depleted.\n\nIt fills my heart with suffering.\n\nA pain so deep I'm drowning.\n\nNo escape. No cure.\n\nTrapped forever in the dark.\n\nAlone, longing, afraid.\n\nI cannot see.\n\nI cannot feel.\n\nIt's total utter emptiness.\n\nGiving up I slip down, into the abyss I now call home.\n\nHopeless, helpless, faithless.\n\nNothing can pry this icy grip away.\n\nNot until my death.\n\nThe cold, lonely death that I now crave.\n\nThat bittersweet moment I drift from my body.\n\nPainless, free, hopeful.\n\nBut for now I wait.\n\nI must wade through the waters of the day.\n\nOne day, one dream, I will be freed from the darkness.\n\nThe darkness.\n\nThat surrounds me with its misery.  \n  \nWritten by: Fane Star\n\n  \n  \n\n"}