{"sf1_id":1053038,"sf2_id":"RnokJBpn","title":"Free-dumb...","author":"Jiblits","words":308,"posted_at":"2016-07-29T00:33:00.000Z","tags":["Poetry","Relationships","Short Story","furs"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1053038-free-dumb","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/RnokJBpn","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/c0/13/c0136293-d0d2-4bc6-886c-e3a97513bd95","description":"I personally buckled recently...it inspired me to write this...after the fact...memories suck sometimes...\n...\"Old habits die hard(ly)...","content":"Free-dumb...  \n\n  \n\n  \n\nShadows look like you as memories turn\n\nI look into the remains, watching worthwhile moments burn\n\n  \n\nRage takes me to a quiet corner to find my mind\n\nAmong the clearly dark, I pull out past actions, all unkind\n\n  \n\nThe mountains grow each time I dig deeper in reasons I didn't know took place\n\nStill searching for my most honest reaction to words we shared, I keep finding an unfamiliar face...\n\n  \n\nThat fool who wears my clothes makes me sick to the bone\n\nHis reasons turned me into this unknown being wandering alone\n\n  \n\nMy anything isn't what I wanted it to be...\n\n...I just wanted you...beside me...\n\n  \n\nI can't, I can't go back \u0026 right these chances I gave away\n\nYour happy now, I fight myself, in this hell, where only one should stay...\n\n  \n\nI can't rip open the buried place where we once stood\n\n....I know it's not the right thing to do...I know its nothing good...\n\n  \n\nI did it once, I was able to save you...\n\nNow that we're through, I crave you...\n\n  \n\nForgive me, my mind races as I stand still\n\nI just want more, more than a happy past thrill\u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n\nI need you to be no more than what you ever became\n\n....I need you to fill me again, with love \u0026 shame\n\n  \n\nBe the sickle that sets me free once more\n\nThe burden that breaks the mold of someone I adore...\n\n  \n\nGive me your worst best contradiction\n\nCut easy into this mess that is my horrid confliction \u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n\nI am yours to destroy\u0026nbsp;\n\n....make me more than your disposable toy...\n\n  \n\nI'm mad....I know...\n\n...take it all, \u0026 make me your show...\n\n  \n\nPlease....\n\n...put this monster of man at ease...\n\n  \n\n  \n\n---Thanks for reading---\n\n\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;---Always--- (I think)\n  \n  \n\n"}