{"sf1_id":1102833,"sf2_id":"yndOEW7m","title":"That Gay Goth Dog: New Beginning","author":"StormTierSkywolf","words":782,"posted_at":"2016-12-08T07:37:00.000Z","tags":["Abuse","Blush","Canine","Curse","Dog","Fear","Forced","German Shepherd","Harsh","Hate","Heartbreak","Male","Pain","Real Life","Sad","Torture","Violence"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1102833-that-gay-goth-dog-new-beginning","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/yndOEW7m","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/a8/c5/a8c50d57-a761-4b59-8121-9c1197aab6e0","description":"#66 of That Gay Goth Dog","content":"\"Fuck! Again!? REALLY?!\" I growled loudly at my computer, which just crashed for the fourth time tonight. \"Fuck\" i said and slummped in my chair. I looked over at my clock, and the the numbers read '4:54AM' and i growled.   \n  \nMan, i remember when hayden was here... i remember when Aaron was around.. Seth.. Alex, oh alex.. I remember all the moments.   \ni growled loudly as my memories came back.   \n\"FUCK!\" I spun around and punched my metal head board on my bunk \"FUCK!\" i yelped and held my hand, which was now bleeding. tears filled my eyes as i fell to the ground.   \n\"GOD!\" i yelled and looked up, out the window, to the stars in the sky. \"PLEASE, GIVE ME BACK MY LIFE!\" i yelled before bursting out crying and held my paw to my chest. \"please, just please\" i whimpered.   \nI looked up, and around my room, nothing but a mess. Food plates piled up, \n\nplastic containers from take out bars, stacked in the corner. My keyboard, my old PSR, dusty and cluttered with bills, paper work, and old notation of songs.\u0026nbsp; I got up and dusted off one of the pages and blinked reading the lyrics that were upon it. \"Would you fall through the dark.\n\nFeel the wind in your hair  \nWould you embrace the ground  \nAnd end your life right there  \nOr would god reach his hand  \nAnd that moment you fly  \nOr if he chanced to blink  \nAnd then, that moment you die  \nYou die\"   \nthe lyrics made my ears tear up as i heard haydens voice sing in my head  \n  \n\n\u0026nbsp;\"Stare into the dark  \nAs the abyss keeps calling  \nTry to take a step  \nBut then the mind keeps stalling  \nCan a single question  \nJust go on forever  \nAs a single thought goes on  \nIt's now or never  \nNever really took much  \nnever really had to  \nonly had a small crush  \nProblem was that it grew\"  \nA slight pain started growing in my chest, as i reached into my pocket and pulled out a lighter. Lighting it, and just letting the flame heat the metal around the safty cap.  \n  \n\"Be who you are  \nWhat you were  \nWhat they see  \nFrom eternity's viel  \nTell me  \nWhich one is me  \nOn this night  \nkeep me close  \nOn this night  \nBreathe my air  \nOn this night  \nHold me tight  \nFeel my heart  \nBeating there\"  \n  \nAnd as i finished the line, i pressed the red hot metal cap against my flesh, and fur. Burning. Charring the skin and fur, causing me to open my muzzle in pain, but not yell.  \n  \n\"im worthless\" i growled and punched my self in the head.  \n  \n\"who wants to know me, who wants to be my friend, who wants me to be in their lives.. no one, i got nothing.\" i cried and threw the papers from the keyboard, onto the ground. \"  \nMEMORIES!\" i yelled and spat on the pages of old songs, old lyrics. \"you were a waist in my life\" i growled. \"i need to start over, i need someone new\" i looked up at a few numbers of some people i met though my years with Who's To Blame. \"i think its time for a new band.. \" i smiled evilly, my mind just laughing demonically as i thought of a new band, thought of the new wonders, adventures, and tails. \"I no longer have a husband, i no longer have my friends, lets start a new.\"   \ni took the first card, the picture on it was one of another German Shepherd. His name was Ralph. Looked like a strong pup, normal colored fur, but on his right ear, he had some industrial piercings, and a guitar in his left paw. \"Lets give you a call.\" i said calling the number.   \n  \n\n\u0026nbsp;\"Hello?\" a soft voice said over the phone.  \n\"Hey, is this Ralph?\" i asked.  \n\"It is, may i ask who is this?\" i heard his voice shake a bit, hesitantly.  \n\"Its Jeremy, we met a month or two ago. i got your card from Guitar Center when we ran into each other playing Stinkfist. \" i said with a chuckle.  \n  \n\"AH! yes, hey man whats up?\" i heard his voice brighten.   \n\"Im looking for something new, and i need a guitarist, you interested?\" i asked.  \n\"HELL YEAH! tell me when and where, and ill be there!\"  \n  \n\"sounds good, let me see where my new practice spot is, and ill text you the adress!\"  \n\"Sweet, thanks man! cant wait to work with you!\" he said and hung up, in excitment.  \ni sighed softly and spoke out to my self. \"one down, three more to go.. lets see what happens!\"  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"That Gay Goth Dog","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1027075-that-gay-goth-dog-a-year-gone-by-part-1.json","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1102838-that-gay-goth-dog-new-beginning-2.json"}}