{"sf1_id":1104081,"sf2_id":null,"title":"Untouchable: Chapter 29: Political: Sean","author":"Dars","words":3706,"posted_at":"2016-12-10T22:48:00.000Z","tags":["Anthropomorphic","Border Collie","Cat","City","Family","Gay","Interspecies","Male","Novel","Plot Development","Relationships","Romance","Story Series","Tiger","Wolf"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1104081-untouchable-chapter-29-political-sean","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/1104081","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=1104081\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"","content":"Sean's tail popped he wagged it so hard. \"Sorry... sorry, I didn't mean to come on so strong,\nI've wanted to do that for years,\" Sean said and panted, his hips still\npinning Oliver to the couch.\"Wow! I-I'm light headed, that was amazing,\" Oliver\nsaid, then moaned when he rubbed his hips against Sean's.Sean traced a nail along Oliver's left ear, then said,\n\"You're kiss number eight.\"\"Wait, you've only kissed eight times and you're\nthat good?!\" Oliver asked.Sean chuckled, then said, \"No just the eighth\nfur.\"\"Oh, well I have only made out with six,\" Oliver\nsaid.\"We haven't been very active for our age,\" Sean\nsaid then lay and nuzzled on Oliver.\"Sean, do you only like me because I'm a cat?\" Oliver\nasked, he smelled nervous.\"No but it makes everything so much easier for\nme,\" Sean said.\"How is it easier, you're allergic to me?\" Oliver\nsaid then shifted under Sean, which made things more comfortable.\"Oh I just like cats, the way you smell, the way you\nmove, that you're not pack, that you don't mind if things are a bit...\" Sean\nsaid then stopped before he admitted he wanted someone who wanted pain to get\noff. This killed his arousal.\"Cats don't mind what?\" Oliver asked.\"I don't want to say, I just realized something I'm\nnot proud of,\" Sean said then tried to lift himself off Oliver.\"You can tell me, I have something I've wanted to\ntell you, but because I thought it might change things I haven't. It's hard for\nme to talk about it,\" Oliver said and held Sean to him.\"I've never told anyone this... no one,\" Sean said\nsinking back into Oliver's arms.\"I had a hard time telling anyone, I told my closest\nfriends and they went home,\" Oliver said.\"Wait the two other Tigers, I thought you said they\nwouldn't stay with you because you're gay?\" Sean asked.\"It was that and something else, why do you want a\nfeline?\" Oliver asked.\"I'm ashamed to say it Oliver,\" Sean said then\nmoved to the other side of the couch as he pulled away.\"Is it one of the cat fetishes, if you're into\ngetting sprayed that's ok, it's not my thing, but I won't judge you,\" Oliver\nsaid.Sean laughed and said, \"No its not water-sports, I think\nI'm just fucked in the head, I have dark fantasies, and there's that stereotype\nthat all cats get off on pain during sex.\"Oliver blanched. \"I see,\" He said, \"So you\nwant to hurt me.\"\"Alpha no, I hate that shit, it just pops into my\nhead, when I'm getting off all the time,\" Sean said, \"I don't know if\nit was from being raped or from being sent to conversion therapy right after it\nhappened.\"\"Oh... Sean I'm not into pain,\" Oliver said\nlegs huddled to his chest.\"I've never thought of you that way, or Xander,\"\nSean said, he wished he hadn't spoken and had just held Oliver.\"But you have thought of someone before?\" Oliver\nasked.\"Yeah I have... telling you fucked everything up\ndidn't it?\" Sean asked.\"No, I still want you here, but your fetish is kind\nof a turn off for me,\" Oliver said.\"I hate it too, remember I was the 'Runt' to my\nrapist, I don't want to think about causing pain or raping someone but it just\ncomes up,\" Sean said, then stood, \"I...I should go.\"\"No!\" Oliver said, jumping to grab Sean,\n\"I have scars from my rapist too, some inside and out, I don't think there\nsexy and I don't like your scars they make me think of my own,\" Oliver said\nthen pulled his shirt off.Sean was startled, and stepped back.Oliver leaned showing Sean two rumpled parallel lines of\nfur on his left shoulder, then said, \"he bit me, scarring my heart, mind\nand body, Sean, I hate thinking about it but I will for you, we'll get\ncounseling remember.\"\"I don't want to hurt anyone, but I don't know how\nto make it stop,\" Sean said then felt along Oliver's scars.\"Will figure it out,\" Oliver said, then took Sean's\npaw and kissed him, \"I wouldn't miss you for the world either.\"Sean was pulled by Oliver back on to the couch and into\nhis arms.\"I just want that moment, you know, in the movies.\nIt probably doesn't exist where you get to just be with someone where\neverything's right, no miss understandings or secrets, just each other and\nhappiness,\" Sean said while he tried to shape his thoughts with his paw in\nthe air.\"Sounds nice, but it would be very vulnerable,\"\nOliver said. Sean felt Oliver pull him till he was draped over Oliver's chest.\nHe leaned his head back onto Oliver's shoulder to nuzzle cheek to cheek.\"You're my first,\" Sean said.\"First cat I imagine,\" Oliver said.\"The first anyone since conversion therapy that I\nhave been this open with,\" Sean said which made Oliver squeeze him tightly\naround the chest.\"Not even Xander?\" Oliver asked.\"Particularly Xander, we made up after my therapy,\nwhen we went to college together, but things just weren't the same,\" Sean said\nthen left them in silence not wanting to say more.\"At least he still wants you in his life,\" Oliver\nsaid.Sean snorted, then said, \"Doesn't feel like it\nrecently.\"\"He does, you're both still playing tag, trying to\ntalk.... You know I told you my friends left because of my secret,\" Oliver\nsaid.\"You can tell me, you haven't kicked me out for\nmine,\" Sean said then licked Oliver's nose.\"Hey!... Fine, I'll tell you,\" Oliver said when\nhe wiped his nose with the back of his paw and sat there.\"Ah, you still haven't said anything,\" Sean said.\"Well it's about my health,\" Oliver said, then\nhis phone rang, \"it shouldn't affect you but- one second. Hey it's Oliver.\"Sean was curious but unconcerned, till he recognized the\nvoice he faintly heard on the other end of Oliver's call.\"If I can? Yeah I can buzz you up, I'll have the key\nfor you,\" Oliver said, when he ended the call.\"Why was Xander calling you?\" Sean asked when\nhe extracted himself from their cuddle.\"He's borrowing Paul's car, which Paul left here for\nhim,\" Oliver said. \"Oh, so you guys hangout now cause I haven't seen\nhim in days?\" Sean said annoyed at the implied exclusion.\"No just Paul, but with them being joined at the hip\nso to speak I have gotten to talk with him a few times,\" Oliver said then\nstood to walk to the door then hit the door buzzer. Oliver went to the bathroom\nwhile Sean sat in thoughts about the past he thought he had forgiven Xander\nfor.  I got on AOL as\nsoon as I stopped crying and e-mailed Xander, \"I'm so sorry, please\nforgive me I need you right now, you don't know what it was like.\"My room's door knob\nrattled, so I hit send and closed the browser then switched off the screen. I\nstood up from where I had been kneeling still unable to sit on my hard desk\nchair.\"Honey are\nyou-\" Mom peaked in but recoiled at the smell, \"so that's where the\nair freshener went.\"My heart raced, I\nlied, \"I'm fine mom, what's up?\"\"Well Xander\nran home and he just got here, and he mentioned you got in a fight,\" mom said.\"I didn't mean\ntoo,\" I said as she advanced into my room looking concerned when she\nflipped the lights on. I paced back from her across my room till my tail\nbrushed my bed I didn't want her to see my shorts and freak out like Xander\ndid. I flicked my tail up before I sat, that action and sitting made me wince,\nI hoped mom hadn't seen.\"Honey what\nhappened?\" She asked.\"I don't want\nto talk about it, and I didn't mean to hit him but he wouldn't leave me\nalone,\" I said.\"Him who, the\nperson you got in a fight with... wait you mean Xander? He said you weren't\nsick, honey! You hit him, why did you two fight?\" Mom asked then sat next\nto me with a stern expression.\"Shit he told\nher I got in a fight with someone else,\" I thought, then said, \"Someone\npicked a fight with me, not Xander.\"\"But you did\nhit Xander, that's why he ran home? For what reason? Sean I understand if you\ngot in a fight you didn't start, but I need an explanation, why would you hit Xander\nand why did you lied about being sick,\" mom said.I sat for a bit\nwhile I tried to think a way out of this, then said, \"Xander was going to\ntell about the fight. I didn't want him to tell you and he wouldn't listen and\nI lost my temper.\"\"Son you know\nthat's not ok, what is the punishment we decided as a family we'd get for hitting,\"\nmom said.\"No computer,\nbut I need to apologize to Xander?\" I said trapped.\"You can send\none message, then I want the power cord to your computer, but I still want to\nknow why you lied about being sick,\" she said paws held in her lap, never\na good sign.\"I didn't want\nto go to school,\" I said and tried not to fidget.\"Obviously,\nbut why?\" She asked.\"Because if I\ndid go, I'd have to run in gym class,\" I said in an attempt to be\ncreative, but honest.\"So you didn't\nwant to run...\" she said.We sat in silence\nfor a good while.\"I didn't want\nto run cause it would hurt,\" I said.\"Sean why and\nwhere would it hurt?\" She asked.I thought like\ncrazy, \"I could say, I hurt my foot kicking the attacker, no too easy to\ndisprove, I've been walking fine. Shit why did I say I couldn't run. My ribs, I\ncould say it's my ribs that hurts when you run.\" I wagged my tail from feeling\nclever but that sent knives of pain up my spine. When I yelped mom asked,\n\"It's your tail they hurt your tail!\" \"Shit no way\nout of this now,\" I thought. \"Yeah the guy\ngrab me by the tail it... it hurts,\" I said then realized, \"she might\nwant to see it and she'll see my shorts.\"\"What guy Sean?\nWas it someone from school?\" She asked then took my paw in hers.\"No,\" I said.\"Who was\nit?\" She asked.\"It was no one\njust a random guy,\" I said.\"Honey you\nwere attacked by a random guy, but you won't say who... when did it\nhappen?\" She asked.\"Friday night\nafter the game,\" I said.\"I thought you\nwere hanging out with Xander?\" Mom asked.\"I was,\"\nI said, I knew she didn't like my story.\"Really so he\nwas there for the fight, that's how he knows about it?\" Mom asked,\n\"I'll need to talk to his mom.\"Mom got up too\nleave. \"Ok I wasn't with Xander,\" I blurted out.\"So you're lying\nagain, why can't you tell the truth, I didn't raise you to be a liar,\" mom\nsaid.\"If I tell you\nand dad you'll both freak out,\" I said like an idiot.\"Oh... so what\nwere you doing?\" Mom asked like an immovable statue.\"I... I can't\nsay,\" I said while blood pounded in my ears so I couldn't think.\"Honey, you\nmean you won't say. All I've heard is that you got in a fight, you hit Xander,\nyou have a tail injury, you lied about being sick, stole the air freshener,\nobviously trying to hide something from me, and now you won't talk about\nit,\" she said mixed anger and worry in the lines of her drawn brows.\"I can't mom,\ndad would freak out!\" I said it had gotten harder to breathe.\"Again you say\ncan't when you mean won't, why won't you... why?\" She asked.\"Why can't you\ntell me, does this have something to do with a girl... a gang.... drugs what's\ngoing on?\" She asked.\"No mom, I'd\nnever be in a gang, and it wasn't a girl!\" I said my joints popped as I\nkneaded my paws.\"You didn't\nanswer if it was drugs. Was it drugs?\" She asked disappointment clearly\nshowing.I remember the\ntangy smelling bottle under my nose which made me light headed while I was told\nto shut up and be a good little runt. He hadn't used lube.I hung my head\ntired of lying, not knowing what to say.\"So you were\ndoing drugs and got into a fight... I'm going to talk with your father and One\nof us will need that power cord when we get back then The three of us can\ndiscuss further punishments,\" mom said and stood.\"I didn't want\nto do it,\" I said, unable to think of how to get out of the situation. \"We all have\nchoices, you know that, I'll be right back,\" she said then walked rigidly\nout of the room.My vision tunneled\nas I hyperventilated, then when I calm down a bit, I change my shorts and threw\nall of my bloody clothes into the closet under a blanket. I sprayed air\nfreshener then went to the computer.When I signed in Xander\nhad replied, \"I hate you, you couldn't wait, you're a liar and you hit me,\nwhat the hell was that, some friend you are.\"I wrote back,\n\"Mom thinks I'm on drugs now, why did you tell her I got in a fight, I\nwanted to wait he didn't let me Xander, I'm sorry I shouldn't have hit you. I\nwon't be able to message, my mom's taking the power cord. I can't go to the\ndoctor then everyone would know.\"I sent the message\nand heard loud voices downstairs. \"They never\nyell why can't they just yell, oh Alpha, I don't know what to do,\" I\nprayed.\"Karl I should\nbe there too,\" mom said while I heard them come up the stairs.My heart raced I thought\nabout climbing out the window and running away, but sat breathing heavily. They\npassed my room.\"It's ok I\njust need to print something and talk to him, then we can talk to him about the\nchange,\" dad said.I pressed myself\nagainst the door to listen.\"You really think\nit's needed,\" mom said.\"Stephanie I\ntalked to Julian about it well before any if this happened, Sean will graduate\neven if we go this route, and I think it's needed he's getting to the point\nwhere if we don't get him on the right path there won't be another\nchance,\" dad said while they moved down the hall.\"I came to\nfaith late in life, I know we need to be there for him, but maybe we should let\nhim learn from his mistakes, I mean this is drastic and we can't isolate\nhim\" mom said till I couldn't hear them anymore.\"Fuck!....\nfuck fuck fuck! Julian! What is dad talking to the principal about,\" I thought\nwhile I paced the room and tried not to cry. \"I've cried too many times,\nI'm not going to be weak anymore, I won't be the runt anymore.\"The door opened, I\nheld my breath.Samantha and Sharron\ncame in, Sharron asked, \"Sean what's going on?\"\"I can't\nsay,\" I said and shrank back to the bed. They sat to either side of me.\"Are you ok,\nmom was telling dad you hit Xander, why would you do that?\" Sharron asked.\"He was going\nto tell mom something I.... she couldn't know,\" I said and wished they\nwould leave.\"Was Xander\ngoing to tell mom that you're gay?\" Samantha asked.My heart stopped, I\nsaid \"how did you?... get out!\"\"Sean you're\ngay?\" Sharron asked.I cried again,\n\"please just leave before mom and dad, they're going to come back.\"\"I'm right\naren't I, I don't care if you're gay Xander came out to me a longtime\nago,\" Samantha said.\"Sam it's a\nsin,\" Sharron said.\"Please leave!\nBoth of you just leave! I never wanted any of this!\" I yelled my world\nfallen apart.Sharron hugged me,\nand said, \"I love you, there's hope ok.\"\"I love you no\nmatter what,\" Samantha said and hugged me too.\"You don't\nunderstand... it's more there's more... please leave!\" I said in sobs.\"Girls I need to\ntalk to Sean,\" dad said from the door.I wheezed as I\nneared an asthmatic episode. Sharron and Samantha left and mom guided them down\nstairs while I scrambled for my inhaler.Dad stood patiently\nas an executioner safe in the knowledge that he had far more time than I did.I huffed in the\npuffs and tried not to cry.\"Son let's\nhave a little chat,\" dad said gesturing to my bed.I sat hating\neverything being a runt, Xander, being runted and bloody, myself, and dad for\nputting me through this.I gingerly scooted\nback on the bed and held my knees to my chest.\"So is there\nsomething you want to tell me?\" Dad asked.\"No, I really\ndon't, I just want everyone to leave me alone,\" I said, wishing he would\njust understand.\"Fine, then\nI'll share a story with you,\" dad said then sat next to me papers in paw.\"What are\nthose?\" I asked while a chill flowed through me.\"There a\nstory, and I think they say what is really going on here, your mom said you\ntried drugs, I think that could be true but isn't the issue here,\" he said,\n\"you could just tell me.\"I sat in the\nsilence.\"Ok,\" dad\nsaid, then started to read, \"March eleventh four sixteen PM, user\nShepherds-Catwolf signed into craigslist list male for male Seattle\nmetro....\" He looked at me\nwhile I sat in shock, then said, \"I can read what you wrote but I haven't\nat this point, nor did I print it for our little chat, I get that you were\ncurious everyone has urges, but this is a phase and behavior you can't allow to\nbecome a habit.\"\"How did\nyou... why?\" I stammered.\"I got watchdog\nwhen we first got a family computer, none of you knew, but son I've known\nyou've been looking at these forums, chats, and Alpha only knows what else\nsince you were thirteen, I block the sites hoping you would learn but you\nhaven't.\" Dad said.I stammered,\n\"I... dad it's not that... I never wanted this, I...\" \"It's ok son\nthis is a hardship but you don't have to bare it alone, we have a plan and it\nwon't jeopardize college for you, but before we go into that I want us to\npray,\" dad said.I had been for\nhours and years that this conversation would never happen.\"Son do you see\nyourself as... gay,\" dad said.\"I never thought\nof myself as anything,\" I said.\"Well do you\nfind yourself attracted to men?\" He asked.\"I think...\"\nI could hardly speak my throat was so dry, \"yes I am.\"\"Alpha help\nus,\" dad said then he showed his throat, \"we can fix this, we can\nhelp you and protect the family from this.\"I choked on the\nwords when I asked, \"How, are you going to disown me?\"\"We will not\ndisown you, we will help you, let's pray,\" dad said still settled in\nsubmission to the Alpha.\"I'm sorry, I\ndidn't want to disappoint you but I can't make it stop,\" I said.\"The alpha\nknows, let us pray... Dear leading father... submit son, \"Dad said then he\nwaited till I joined him in a posture of submission my silent tears rolled back\nup my forehead.\"Dear leading\nfather, I put before you my son, who as you as all-knowing can see needs you,\nplease help us to lead him through these life decisions, Alpha we know that you\nnever give us something greater than we can bare, I know then that this is\nsomething we can change please show us how,\" dad prayed then waited for my\nprayer.\"I.... I can't\nchange, I... don't know what to do...\" I mumbled.\"Please help\nhim, amen,\" dad said then he sat up and said, \"I'm getting your\nmother.\"I sat in silent self-hatred\nwhile he left the room.Then I prayed,\n\"Why are you doing this to me, do you hate me? I've loved you in\neverything my whole life, but I can't change this. Do you hate-\"Dad and mom came\ninto my room, mom didn't look happy. \"They hate me\nbecause their ashamed of me,\" I thought.Mom and dad sat to\neach side of me, mom held my paw. \"Son we have\nan alternative education program that helps those in your situation,\" dad said.I didn't know what\nto say.\"You'll be starting\ntomorrow,\" mom said with a squeeze of my paw.\"What does\nthat mean,\" I asked.\"We are\npulling you out of school, the public school isn't good for you, and will start\nat Hope Wins school till you graduate in June,\" dad said.\"What! No, all\nmy friends, that's not fair!\" I shouted.\"It's been\ndecided, you said you don't know how to change, and they know how to help\nyou,\" dad said.\"I've never heard\nof them, where is this Hope Wins place,\" I said.\"It's not really\na school school, it's a therapy system, and camp in Idaho,\" mom said.\"You're\nsending me away, please! Please don't send me away!\" I said.\"It's already\nbeen decided, Julian has made sure you'll graduate while we get you\ntherapy,\" dad said.\"But my\nfriends and track, I'll miss prom, what will everyone say,\" I yelled.\"Son we have\nto do this before you get yourself raped and murdered,\" dad snapped.I burst into tears\nand hugged mom, I feared dad knew what happened and hated me for it.They talked at me\nbut I couldn't hear them. Mom and dad let me write one last e-mail to Xander\nthen I was grounded from the computer. They left the room, I got back online.Xander had messaged,\n\"serves you right for hitting me, I was only trying to help. I've decided\nto forgive you but only if you come out.\"I laughed bitterly\nthen wrote, \"You got what you wanted. I'm out. But this is my last\nmessage. We can't talk anymore. I'll miss you, I hope we can still be friends\neven though this is your fault. See you after graduation. I love you still.\"\nSean sat looking at his message then deleted it.\"So I'm out\nnow, my parents flipped out. There sending me away. I'll miss you. Please don't\nhate me if I'm different when I get back. If you want to know if I'm still me\njust ask, are we good. Sean.\" He hit send and turned off the computer.  Sean came back to himself when the toilet flushed. His\neyes were blurred. He thought, \"I won't cry stop it.\"\nHis throat choked on his pain.","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1102544-untouchable-chapter-28-the-red-dressed-virgin.json","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1105507-untouchable-chapter-30-are-you-there-xander.json"}