{"sf1_id":1109837,"sf2_id":null,"title":"Untouchable: Chapter 39: Haunted : Sean","author":"Dars","words":1999,"posted_at":"2016-12-21T05:47:00.000Z","tags":["Anthropomorphic","Border Collie","Cat","City","Family","Gay","Interspecies","Male","Novel","Plot Development","Relationships","Romance","Story Series","Tiger","Wolf"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1109837-untouchable-chapter-39-haunted-sean","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/1109837","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=1109837\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"","content":"\"Oh Alpha, Sean!...\" I drifted in ice water, the cold that so often\nshot up my arm was now all encompassing. The ceiling above was smooth\nreflective ice.My dark reflection said,\n\"Just enjoy it.\" Then the fantasy of raping Paul slowly forced it's\nway through my mind.\"No, I can't,\nI won't,\" I said trying to move, but I couldn't I pleaded, \"make it\nstop.\"\"It would stop\nif you wanted it too,\" my reflection said. The cold water started pulling me,\nbut I still couldn't move.\"Nurse you\ncan start the gastric lavage now, he is intubated...\" \"All you do is\nhurt them, your friends, your family, you lie, you always lie, just enjoy it,\nyou know you want to, he enjoyed hurting you, you're the same.\"\"Shut up I\ndon't I never have,\" I yelled, but the pain in my stomach made me know I\nwas lying again.\"See all you\ndo is lie, if you didn't lie maybe you wouldn't like hurting others.\"\"No I don't, I\ndon't want to hurt or lie.\"\"From the\noverflow of the heart the mouth speaks. And yours screams volumes.\"The current pulled\nme till I plummeted down into my room.\"Son you can\ntake a few things but that's it,\" Dad said.I still couldn't\nmake myself move but my body moved and spoke on it's own.\"Dad this\nisn't fair, I'm basically an adult, you can't send me,\" I said.\"You're not an\nadult and we can, we want to help you. Your mother and I can't support you\ngoing to a state college till we know you can make safe and up right\ndecisions,\" Dad said.\"So if I agree\nto go to Wheaton, George Fox, or Whitworth you won't send me to that camp, dad\nI'll apply, please don't send me,\" I said.\"You wouldn't\nhave applied,\" my reflection said.\"I would have,\nbut then I'd have broken another promise to Xander,\" I retorted.\"See like I said\nalways lying.\"\"Son it's too\nlate for those enrollments, no... This is our only option,\" Dad said.\"He's lying\nright there too,\" I said to my reflection.\"So you'll\nneed to pack for an extended trip, they want you to bring important things to\nhelp with home sickness pictures of friends and family,\" Dad said.Then dad left and I\npacked but I couldn't find my journal or the school picture that Xander and I\nhad taken together.I gave up looking\nfor them. Then sat by my luggage.\"If you're not\na liar why didn't you tell him you don't want to change and that you hate him,\"\nmy reflection said.\"Because that\nwould be a lie too I love him,\" I said to my reflection.\"If you don't\nhate him why do you only talk to him when you have too, it's been ten years of an\nempty shell of a relationship,\" my reflection said.I was now at the\nintroduction meeting for Hope Wins it was in an old hospital now conference\ncenter.\"Do you even\nhave real relationships with anyone, Xander you won't share things with, and\nyou hardly talk to your family,\" my reflection said next to me.\"Why won't you\nleave me alone, I never wanted any of this, I'll ignore you,\" I said.\"Doctor we\nare starting the transfusion...\"\"Hi, you're Sean\nright? I'm Taylor, we'll be roommates for camp,\" a blue eyed athletic wolf\nsaid coming up to me. A warm flush ran through me.\"Oh hi, yeah\nI'm Sean,\" I said.\"Come on I'll\nshow you our room,\" Taylor said.I dragged my bag\nbehind him, Alpha his ass looked great in those tight slacks.\"You're\ndisgusting,\" my reflection said.\"So you want\nto get better?\" Taylor asked.\"Yeah, I guess\nI need too,\" I said.There was a scoff\nin my ear.\"So where are\nyou from?\" Taylor asked.\"Everett, what\nabout you?\" I asked.\"I'm from\nBoise,\" Taylor said, \"the front desk said your dad left this for\nyou.\"It was my journal,\nand the school photo.\"Oh sweet I couldn't\nfind those when I was packing,\" I said, \"So what do we do now?\"\"Not much, we\nget to relax till dinner, here we are,\" he said stopping outside a dorm\nlike room with a bed on each wall with a desk and closet.\"Well I guess\nI'll unpack,\" I said.\"So who is\nthat guy with you in the photo, he's cute,\" Taylor said.\"Dude should\nyou even say that here... I mean is it safe?\" I asked.\"Yeah it's\nfine dude,\" Taylor said laying on the left wall bed while I unpacked.\"So did your\nparents send you here?\" I asked.\"No, I\nvolunteered,\" Taylor said, \"hey it's hot in here you mind if I lose\nthe shirt.\"\"No, I mean\nyou can if you want,\" I said.\"You\npervert,\" my reflection said.I couldn't help but\nwatch as he took off his shirt. He just lay there watching me. \"So what's\nyour type? Your friends hot, do you like wolves?\" He asked.I was so\nembarrassed, and said \"I think, yeah, why wouldn't I.\"\"So you like\nyour buddy there?\" He asked.\"Yeah he's my\nbest friend sometimes I feel I love him,\" I said.Taylor flinched\n\"do you like me.\"\"I... I don't\nknow, you're cute,\" I said.He lay back,\n\"thanks, glad you think so that'll make this all easier.\"\"Yeah it'll be\nnice to have a friend here, my parents made me come, I think they hate\nme,\" I said.\"I'm sorry to hear\nthat, I doubt they do, they just want to help, so what type of guys don't turn\nyou on?\" He asked, \"Do you have a thing for Otters, I sure do.\"\"I just like\ncanids,\" I said.\"Ok\ngood,\" he said standing and putting his shirt on. Then he grabbed my photo\nand journal.\"Hey can I\nhave those back?\" I asked.\"Naw I don't think\nyou can, not till after treatment,\" he said and knocked at the door.A bolt was drawn, I\nrealized someone had locked us in here.An older wolf\ngreeted Taylor.\"The dad was\nright he likes canids and has feelings for the guy in the photo, it will make a\ngood primary,\" Taylor said.\"Good job\nTaylor, who do you think should room with him?\" The old wolf asked.\"I think Neal,\nneither should want to misbehave with the other,\" Taylor said.\"Good, go get\nhim,\" the old wolf said.\"What the hell\nTaylor! Why did you do that,\" I cried.\"Dude I work\nhere, and you need help,\" Taylor said, he passed the older wolf the photo\nbut kept the journal then walked off down the hall.\"Come with me\nyoung man,\" the older wolf said.\"No, why would\nI go anywhere with you, you're all liars,\" I said.\"Because you\nwant to go home, come boy,\" the wolf said.Wilting I followed.\"You may call\nme George or Uncle George if you like, so do you want to get better?\"\nGeorge asked.\"I don't think\nthere's anything wrong,\" I said.\"Filth!\"\nMy reflection said.\"Thou ... that\nmeans you, shall not lie with a male as one lies with a female; it is an\nabomination,\" George said, \"You know where that's from don't\nyou?\"\"The book of\nthe pack,\" I mumbled.\"I know that\nyour father and mother are Alphas for their conference, do you want to shame\nthem,\" George asked.\"No but I\ndon't know how to change, I want to be normal but I can't,\" I whimpered.\"That's ok the\nAlpha provides the tools to overcome temptation,\" He said.\"Well he never\nseemed to give them to me,\" I said.George laughed,\n\"Well, we'll have you equipped soon. Come in and have a seat.\"He had me sit in a\nfunny chair. The right arm rest was like a fish tank full of water.\"Now I'll warn\nyou this isn't fun but it helps,\" George said.I nervously sat in\nthe weird chair.George strapped a\nharness over my shoulders, and a belt over my waist and ankles.He held the photo\nof me and Xander up, then said \"describe this boy.\"\"He's my best\nfriend, we do everything together, well as you can see he's a black monotone\nborder collie with mid length fur,\" I said.\"Ok I think\nwe're out of the woods, get him back on just the IV...\"\"No, my boy who\nis he too you?\" George said.\"He's my best\nfriend the only one, that's always there for me,\" I said.\"Do you love\nhim?\" George asked. \"Yes,\" I said\nfeeling ashamed.\"My boy its\nfine to love him, Jonathan and David were kindred, but they did not lust, love\nhim don't lust for him,\" George said.\"Ok,\" I\nmurmured.\"Describe the\nway you lust for this boy, look at his photo and picture the things and ways\nyou lust for him,\" George said.\"But it's\nwrong, isn't it?\" I asked.\"To train you\nit's a necessary evil, now lust,\" George said.\"I pictured Xander's\nass, and the way he caressed and tickled my stomach when we wrestled, I\nimagined the heat of him and his smell as we cuddled during a movie, I pictured\nhis cock as we jacked to porn together and the way he-\"The arm rest pad\nslipped away and the straps pulled then held me tilted in the water full of\nice.I yelped in\nsurprise as the cold filled me.\"It's what you\ndeserved,\" my reflection said.After hours of\ngetting aroused by Xander then getting plunged in ice water till it hurt,\nGeorge said I did great for today and let me go back to my room.When I reached my\nroom there was a huge huddled form in the other bed.I approached the\nform and said, \"I'm Sean-\"\"Get away from\nme!\" It yelled at me.I stopped and moved\nto my bed, \"Sorry, are you Neal?\" \"Yes,\" he\ngasped.\"Are you\nok?\" I asked.\"No... no I\ncan't change,\" Neal sobbed.I wrapped myself in\na blanket and tried to warm up, not sure what to do or say to the Giant Otter.A while after the\notter stopped crying and I thought he had fallen asleep, he said, \"What\ntreatment are they doing on you?\"\"Ice\nbaths,\" I said.\"Lucky.\"\"They hurt\nafter a while.\"He just laughed at\nme, \"I'm an otter, they don't really work on me.\"\"So what do\nthey do for you?\" I asked.\"They're using\nthose ab exerciser pads like you see on TV, but on your arm, leg or lower\npelvis, then they crank it to like 100, only when you pop a woody, it's the\nworst Charley horse ever,\" Neal said.\"Is that why\nyou snapped?\" I asked.\"Yeah I'm\nsorry, I still hurt,\" he said.\"You wanted to\ntouch him, to rub him, to pleasure him,\" my reflection said.He started crying,\n\"I wish I was normal, I wouldn't need this if I was normal.\"We stayed there in\nan unhappy silence.I was now in the\nice cave again alone floating in the cold, I realized it was the isolation tank\nthat I was put in after still getting an erection from the thought of Xander\nafter a week.I struggled but couldn't\nmove.\"Help me out,\nlet me out,\" I screamed.No one ever came.\"Please, I can\nchange! Let me out! It was just a hug! I know, I shouldn't have hug Neal,\nPlease!\"I pounded on the\nglass above me.\"You never\nwanted to change, if you did you would have,\" my reflection in the glass\nabove me said.\"No your wrong\nthis ended I got past this!\" I cried.\"Stupid boy\nyou'll never get past this you are always going to be a failure who can't love\nand isn't loved.\"\"No I love, I\ncan,\" I cried.\"But you can't\nact on it, from the over flow of the heart, you know that if you had a heart\nthat can love you would, you'd be with Xander or Oliver instead of teasing and\ntwisting them up inside.\"\"I can and I\ndo love, I do.\"I felt a weight on\nmy chest, and a kiss.It was like a warm\nspring breeze, I smelled- it was catching grasshoppers, soccer in the back\nyard, chalk on the side walk, throwing snow balls, and movies and popcorn.\n\"I'm\nsorry for everything that happened, I forgive you that you couldn't keep your\npromise, please just please get better...\" then I felt a warmth fill me in a place that\nhadn't felt it in a decade and the voice of my reflection left me alone to\nrest. 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