{"sf1_id":1112734,"sf2_id":null,"title":"Untouchable: Chapter 42: Shattered but Unbroken: Sean","author":"Dars","words":1679,"posted_at":"2016-12-26T06:57:00.000Z","tags":["Anthropomorphic","Border Collie","Cat","City","Family","Gay","Interspecies","Male","Novel","Plot Development","Relationships","Romance","Story Series","Tiger","Wolf"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1112734-untouchable-chapter-42-shattered-but-unbroken-sean","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/1112734","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=1112734\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"","content":"I sat in the back\nof mom's minivan, she offered the front seat but I wanted to be as far from her\nas I could.\"Sean are you\nexcited for Disney?\" She asked me.I snorted loudly.\"What was\nthat?\"\"Oh yeah mom,\nI'm so thrilled that we get to go on and pretend the last several months didn't\nhappen,\" I said\"I wish we all\nhad made better choices,\" she said.I wouldn't look at\nher although I saw her eyes on me in the mirror....I watched the\nscenery flash past as we drove past farm after farm on the way home on I90....\"Your sisters\nare excited to see you and so is Xander,\" she said. Just hearing his name\nmade me flinch.\"Great more\npeople that will want to pretend I wasn't gone for months,\" I said\nforehead resting against the window.\"Honey, I'm\nsorry...\" mom said.\"For what,\nyou're only picking me up now,\" I snapped.\"Oh... yes,\nUhm... I cleaned your room, I know how you don't like your things getting moved\naround,\" she said.\"What the hell\nis she crying, serves her right, I can't believe I have three more hours of\nthis fucking drive,\" I thought.\"So why didn't\ndad come,\" I said acidly.\"He is getting\nthings set for the trip and the O'Connell's are uncomfortable,\" Mom said.\"So Xander's\nnot coming this year, that's fine,\" I said.\"Oh no... He\nis, but Mr. O'Connell wasn't happy dad sent you to... camp,\" mom said.Despite wanting\neveryone to leave me alone, I liked hearing that....\"You got a\nletter a few weeks ago honey,\" mom said.\"Great...\"\nI said.\"It's from a\nNeal Schmitz, is he a German pen pal?\" Mom asked.\"No... Did you\nand dad read that letter too?\" I asked.\"No honey, we\ndidn't, here it is,\" she said passing it back.I unbuckled and\ngrabbed it, \"about time you both learned to treat your kids like\npeople.\"We were coming up\non a rest stop but I just stared at the envelope.\"Honey I...\nI'll be right back,\" mom said then she ran to the bathroom crying.\"Good\nriddance,\" I thought happily, then I got out having to pee as well.After I got back to\nthe car mom still hadn't come back I dozed off waiting.When I came too we\nwere back on the freeway, nearing the Columbia-Vantage area and all the power\nwind mills.\"How did you\nsleep honey,\" mom asked.\"Fine...\"\"So how do you\nknow this Neal and is he German?\" Mom asked.\"He's Brazilian\nand from Tacoma, I met him at camp, it just so happens he has a religious\nfucker for a parent too,\" I said.Moms hissing breath\nmade me smile.She didn't talk to\nme anymore, so I tore open Neal's letter.\"Dear Sean, I don't know if I\nremembered your address or if you'll want to read this. But I want to thank\nyou, I'm sorry you got in trouble you were the best part of camp and that Litterday.\nIf you want to talk let me know, I'll be at the UW this fall too. I was angry\nwhen I got home, because everyone wanted me to be the same as I was before,\nthey don't get it. I wrecked some friendships, well what was left of them, with\nhigh school friends. It didn't help. But I did find something to help with the\nblock if you want it text me.\" I set aside the letter\nhappy, sad but mostly confused.We rode in silence\ntill we reached Issaquah.Mom asked,\n\"Are you at least looking forward to the trip?\"\"I'm looking\nforward to college and getting the hell away from you all,\" I said.\"I see... you\nknow Sharron and Sam chose out of state schools, I don't think they had decided\nbefore you know,\" mom said.\"That makes\nsense why would we go to school together, it's about time we lived our own\nlives,\" I said.Mom didn't speak\nagain till we got home.\"I missed\nyou,\" mom said when we pulled up to the home.\"Cool...\"\nI got out of the van and headed inside ignoring Sharron and Samantha as they\nran down the hall. Went into my room and packed.I ignored the\nwhispers outside my door.\"Mom what's\nwrong with him,\" Sam asked.\"I know you're\nexcited to see him but he doesn't want to see us right now, let's let him alone\nok,\" mom said.\"Fine, in a\nsecond,\" Sharron said, \"We all miss you and love you, even if you\ndon't love or even like us.\"Half packed I broke\ndown at her words, so I threw myself on my bed to hide under the distantly\nfamiliar blanket and fell asleep.Dad woke me up,\n\"sport are you ok?\" I didn't want to see\nhim, \"why would you care.\"\"Because I\nlove you,\" He said after flinching.\"Sure didn't feel\nlike it the last several months,\" I said.\"Ah I see the\nattitude your mother mentioned,\" Dad said.\"Maybe there's\na camp for it,\" I said.Dad sat blinking at\nme as if I had slapped him.\"I see it may\nhave done more harm than good,\" Dad said then got up, \"The\nO'Connell's and Xander will be here in a few minutes you may want to treat them\nwith the love you seem to lack for your own family.\"I felt like\nthrowing something at the door, I grabbed the nearest object but it was the\nphoto of me and Xander from school, I flung it away from myself in surprise.\nDad must have put it there or had it replaced. I never got my journal back. Seeing\nthat horrible photo made my whole body ache. \"Fuck everyone\nand everything,\" I said. I shoved the photo under the bed and finished\npacking.I glared at the\nroof hurdling daggers at the Alpha for who I was and everything that happened\nto me.\"I'm small but\nno one will make me do what they want unless I want too again, never\nagain!\" I growled at my reflection in my closet mirror.I heard the doorbell\nring downstairs.  Sean woke sore and hurting everywhere, his gut was\nthrobbing with sharp discomfort, and his maw was dry from the forced air. He\nwas dizzy and his multiple dreams had him confused and angry.Sean tried to speak but the words were garbled, \"wheah,\nam ay!\"\"Son you're awake,\" Dad said moving to the bed.Sean felt an unchained rage, \"whu ahre you\nheir?\"\"Let me help you with that,\" Dad said.Sean slapped away his father's paw when he reached for Sean's\nmuzzle.Sean scraped the breath mask off.\"What are you doing here?\" he asked coldly.\"You had a bad chemical interaction, you accidentally\ntook Oliver's medicine,\" Dad said, \"are you ok?\"\"Like you care?\" Sean said then tried to sit\nup. He got too dizzy too stay upright and fell back into the pillows.\"Are you ok?\" Dad asked trying to check the\npillows.\"Get away from me,\" Sean snapped.\"I... I'm sorry are you ok,\" Dad asked.\"I'll be better once you leave,\" Sean said.He blinked at Sean in confusion and hurt then left the\nroom.Sean felt tubes and objects intruding in his arm and\npenis, he felt violated and disgusted as he flailed trying to sit up.Dad, mom and that Tabby nurse from his last visit returned\nto the observation area.The intercom crackled, \"Mr. Miller please lay\ndown.\"\"No I'm getting the fuck out of here,\" Sean\nsnapped.\"Lay down and I'll get someone to help you,\"\nthe nurse said.\"You can't make me I'll take care of it\nmyself,\" He said.\"You can injure yourself don't make me come in there\nI don't want to make you... but you're allergic so... I can and I will, you\ncan't stop me,\" she said.\"You'll make me, you'll force me, fuck you,\" Sean\nsnapped.\"I'm sorry no I won't force you but please for your\nsafety let me get a none feline to help you,\" she pleaded.He relented, \"well hurry up!\"The nurse rushed away.\"Sean honey what's wrong?\" Mom asked.....\"Honey are you ok?\"...Before she could speak again Sean snapped, \"No Alpha\ndamnit, no I'm not alright... you two put me through hell, and... and I hate\nyou for it.\"Sean was crying but between angry sobs he growled,\n\"you wanted to make me straight so you let some cunt fucker abuse me... to\nmake me feel pain at the idea of sex the way I'm fucking wired... mom I'm not\nok and I'm done pretending.\"Mom and Dad looked afraid and hurt.The tabby returned with the Raccoon nurse.The Raccoon came in closed the blinds and washed her\npaws.\"Are you ok Mr. Miller?\" She asked.\"Do I look ok?\" He asked rolling his eyes.\"No you don't but I'll do whatever I can to\nhelp,\" she said.He was still fuming but realized he wasn't angry with\nher, \"thanks I just want to get gone.\"\"Ok let me get your IV, and please breathe normally\nwhen I get the catheter,\" she said.\"Easy for you to say,\" Sean said.After she finished he asked, \"Where are my\nclothes?\"Mom answered through the intercom, \"in the cabinet\nnext the sink.\"\"I didn't ask you,\" Sean snapped, he wobbled to\nhis feet and then the cabinet.The nurse turned in a hurry as he stripped his hospital\ngown and dressed.\"Where are my meds?\" He asked.\"Sean you took Oliver's there not here,\" Dad said\nvia the intercom.\"So Oliver has them,\" Sean said then tried to\nwalk normally to the door and leave.\"Sir, I don't think you should go you just had\na-\"\"Legally you can't detain me...\" he glared at\nmom and Dad, \"something I wish I knew long ago.\" Then breezed past\nthem.Dad trotted after him, \"Sean where are you going son\nyou need to rest.\"Sean spun shoving Dad ineffectively in the chest because\nof the size difference, wanting to knock him to the floor, \"I will do as I\nsee fit you can't make me do anything anymore.\"\"Sean what's wrong with you?\" Dad asked wide\neyed.\"Everything, nothing, pray to the Alpha Dad, figure\nit out,\" Sean yelled then stormed off.Sean felt his dad's paw on his shoulder, he was so angry\nhe turned and hit him just as he hit Xander, but he didn't feel sorry this\ntime. Dad didn't follow.\nHe pulled out his phone noting it was late then scheduled\na retriever to pick up two blocks over, and walked that way.","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1111874-untouchable-chapter-41-what-could-have-been-xander.json","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1113164-untouchable-chapter-43-twisting-of-the-knife-oliver.json"}