{"sf1_id":1120244,"sf2_id":"Oe57JBNn","title":"Dis-honest...","author":"Jiblits","words":352,"posted_at":"2017-01-08T09:52:00.000Z","tags":["Betrayal","Poem","slice of life"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1120244-dis-honest","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/Oe57JBNn","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/f8/e6/f8e6ce90-2774-4a3f-a738-8725831aaf8e","description":"....you had to...right...","content":"Dis-honest...\n\nMind racing, sleep won't find me tonight\n\nAs much as I hate it, I'm left in the unknown, filled with fright\n\nA paradox I thought was dead \u0026 gone came back to life\n\nIt caught me slowly by surprise, cutting deeper than any knife\n\nIt sliced me further than needed\n\nTime filled in the gaps with worry as I fell into doubt \u0026 possibility proceeded\n\nNothing or more than what it should of been\n\nI'm hurting, more than any other time, more than back then\u0026nbsp;\n\nWords empty, promises never kept breaking into dust\n\nI'm already over the limit, to continue is misery, I decision to be made, a must\n\nFickle is all that comes to a muddy mind knowing the worst, \u0026 frowning at the best\n\nThe answers already given, why bother with the test, why reassure the rest...\n\nDam it all if tomorrow brings what's to be expected\n\nMy part is meaningless, I've all but been neglected\n\nEvery choice had my hand clear\n\nEvery decision was made without an ounce of fear\n\nStill is my heart\n\nFeet at the ready, I'm ready to part\n\nShadows of why will follow till the end\n\nTill I no longer walk, till I can no longer have wisdom to lend\n\nSuch is life now, as it always could of been, as it was always to be\n\nI just never was okay with any of this drama happening to me...\n\nLet it go, forgive \u0026 forget\n\nThat's not enough when the worst know how the better never met\n\nThis life is gone, why more struggle if by another who only breeds pain\n\nTo try again would only feed the lost, the self-centered, the vain\n\nFor what it's worth, the run was short, memories fast\n\nNo perfect image to really distort, I guess I always knew it wouldn't last\n\nI'll pick opus the pieces worthwhile\n\nJust hope you know, it was half-hearted with each \u0026 every smile...\n\n---Thanks for reading---\n\n\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;---Always---\n\n(Except you, you know who you are)\n\n  \n  \n\n"}