{"sf1_id":1128778,"sf2_id":null,"title":"The Ballad of Phillip Chapter 9","author":"Vikthefox","words":2266,"posted_at":"2017-01-22T17:52:00.000Z","tags":["Fox","Gay Relationships","Sex","Wolf"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1128778-the-ballad-of-phillip-chapter-9","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/1128778","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=1128778\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"#9 of The Ballad of Phillip\n\nThe final chapter of The Ballad of Phillip.","content":"Author's Note: Thanks to all my friends, watchers, and viewers. \u0026nbsp;You guys rock! \u0026nbsp;This is the final chapter of The Ballad of Phillip, but you may see these characters appear in other stories in the future.\n\n  \n\nThe Ballad of Phillip\n\n  \n\nChapter 9: 2006-Present\n\n  \n\nWhen the awards show ended, I got out of there as fast as I could, avoiding the press along the way. \u0026nbsp;I knew they would want to ask me about Aaron, but I didn't know what I would tell them. \u0026nbsp;Once I got inside my apartment I tried to process it all. \u0026nbsp;Aaron still loved me? \u0026nbsp;Why wasn't he over me? \u0026nbsp;I was over him and I didn't want to be his boyfriend again. \u0026nbsp;With all that said, I felt the need to reach out to him. \u0026nbsp;I had to at least say \"Thanks\" for defending me. \u0026nbsp;So I picked up the receiver and for the first time in over ten years I dialed his number. \u0026nbsp;I was so nervous that I was shaking. \u0026nbsp;What would he say? \u0026nbsp;How was he feeling? \u0026nbsp;I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard a familiar, tired voice say, \"hello?\"\n\n  \n\n\"It's me\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"Phillip? \u0026nbsp;Are you okay?\", Aaron asked.\n\n  \n\n\"Yeah, I'm fine. \u0026nbsp;Tobias will get what he deserves when the press flames him for being a homophobe\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"True\", Aaron said.\n\n  \n\n\"Thanks for defending me. \u0026nbsp;You didn't have to do that\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"But I did have to do that\", Aaron said.\n\n  \n\n\"Why?\", I asked.\n\n  \n\n\"Because I still love you. \u0026nbsp;I know you'll never forgive me, that album of yours confirmed that, and I know we'll never get back together, but I wanted you to know I still care\", Aaron said, he sounded like he was going to cry.\n\n  \n\n\"Awww, that's very sweet of you. \u0026nbsp;I'm not mad at you anymore either, I moved on\", I said.\n\n  \n\nThen I heard him cry. \u0026nbsp;Maybe I shouldn't have said \"'I moved on'\"?\n\n  \n\n\"Don't cry\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"Why? \u0026nbsp;I miss you so much. \u0026nbsp;I'm so sorry Phillip. \u0026nbsp;I'm sorry for all the nasty things I said to you. \u0026nbsp;I'm sorry I drove you away and made you hate me\", Aaron said.\n\n  \n\n\"As I said, I'm not mad at you anymore. \u0026nbsp;So don't be sad. \u0026nbsp;Everyone messes up, all we can do is just move on with our lives\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"You were my last chance at love and I fucked up\", Aaron said.\n\n  \n\n\"You'll find someone else. \u0026nbsp;I bet there's a ton of guys who would love to be with you\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"Nope. \u0026nbsp;I've been alone for the past ten years and I'm gonna stay that way\", Aaron said.\n\n  \n\n\"It's going to be okay. \u0026nbsp;I healed and you will too\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"I never healed these past ten years, how am I supposed to heal now?\", Aaron asked.\n\n  \n\n\"Remember this, I don't hate you. \u0026nbsp;I forgive you for all of the things you said to me. \u0026nbsp;I moved on and found happiness with someone else. \u0026nbsp;It's time for you to do the same. \u0026nbsp;Get out there Aaron, meet some new furs. \u0026nbsp;Find the one you were truly meant to be with\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"Thank you so much Phillip\", Aaron said.\n\n  \n\n\"You're welcome Aaron\", I said.\n\n  \n\nWe then hung up at the same time. \u0026nbsp;In truth, I wasn't in a relationship with Dennis at the time and the differences in our lifestyles made me question whether or not he was the one for me. \u0026nbsp;But I wanted Aaron to heal and move on. \u0026nbsp;I could tell he wanted closure and I did my best to give it to him. \u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n\nThere was still one issue left to solve, what to do about Dennis? \u0026nbsp;I loved him, but I was so afraid of us breaking up and ruining our friendship. \u0026nbsp;I didn't want to break his heart like I did Aaron's. \u0026nbsp;I couldn't come to a decision and for the next few months I avoided the issue until one day in July 2007 when I just couldn't keep it a secret anymore.\n\n  \n\n\"Dennis, there's something I need to tell you\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"What is it?\", Dennis asked.\n\n  \n\n\"For the past few years I've been having these feelings. \u0026nbsp;I tried holding them back because I was afraid of how you would react. \u0026nbsp;Dennis...I love you and I want you to be my boyfriend\", I said.\n\n  \n\nDennis didn't look surprised. \u0026nbsp;Instead he smiled at me and said, \"I love you too purple foxy, but I was afraid you would freak out like the last guy I was with.\"\n\n  \n\n\"What happened with him?\", I asked, concerned.\n\n  \n\n\"We were friends with benefits, just like you and I. \u0026nbsp;I fell in love with him over time, but when I confessed my feelings he ended our friendship and never wanted to speak to me again\", Dennis said. \u0026nbsp;My protective instincts kicked in and I gave him a tight hug and said, \"I'm sorry he was so mean to you.\"\n\n  \n\n\"It's okay, I moved on from him. \u0026nbsp;To answer your question, yes I would love to be your boyfriend, Phillip\", Dennis said.\n\n  \n\n\"Thank you so much Dennis\", I said, giving him a deep, passionate kiss.\n\n  \n\n\"You're welcome purple foxy\", Dennis said, kissing me back.\n\n  \n\nFor the next three years my life had changed. \u0026nbsp;I kept my apartment in Fox Hollow, but rented a new one near Dennis. \u0026nbsp;I didn't write as much music, and I only went to Fox Hollow on occasion to visit my friends. \u0026nbsp;In a way I felt retired, even though I wasn't even 40 yet. \u0026nbsp;Those were peaceful years, buying groceries at the local store, taking long walks in the park with Dennis, it was fun. \u0026nbsp;But there was a problem, one I didn't realize until one dreadful night in 2010. \u0026nbsp;You see, when Dennis and I became boyfriends, he asked if we could have an open relationship, just like our old friends with benefits relationship. \u0026nbsp;I had no desire to have sex with anyone other than him, but I knew he didn't feel the same way and at the time I was just so glad to have him be mine that I agreed to this open relationship situation. \u0026nbsp;I did have one rule though, \"don't tell me about the other guys.\" \u0026nbsp;He agreed to it, but over the years the idea of him with other men began to bother me more and more. \u0026nbsp;I considered breaking up, but I kept telling myself that he didn't deserve it. \u0026nbsp;On August 12, 2010 I caught him with another man. \u0026nbsp;I decided to pay Dennis a visit that night. \u0026nbsp;Now usually I called ahead, just to make sure he wasn't busy, but I forgot that night. \u0026nbsp;I knocked on the door, but there was no answer. \u0026nbsp;I heard noises coming from the house, I stood there and listened.\n\n  \n\n\"Oh yeah, fuck me harder Sven! \u0026nbsp;Dominate my hole!\", I heard Dennis cry out. \u0026nbsp;At that moment my heart sank. \u0026nbsp;Hearing him being pleasured by another man hurt. \u0026nbsp;I hated it. \u0026nbsp;I hated the fact that he was having sex with another man. \u0026nbsp;I hated this whole open relationship thing. \u0026nbsp;To actually witness him having sex with another man was too much. \u0026nbsp;I had to break up with Dennis. \u0026nbsp;I noticed the door wasn't locked so I opened it and walked into Dennis' living room and saw Dennis being plowed by a dark brown wolf who I guess was Sven. \u0026nbsp;They stared at me with shocked looks, with Sven looking downright horrified.\n\n  \n\n\"What are you doing here?\", Dennis asked nervously.\n\n  \n\n\"I can't do this anymore. \u0026nbsp;We're breaking up\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"You didn't tell me you had a boyfriend!\", Sven said. \u0026nbsp;He pulled out of Dennis and ran out of the house carrying his clothes. \u0026nbsp;Why he didn't bother to get dressed I'll never know. \u0026nbsp;I never saw myself as scary. \u0026nbsp;Dennis looked upset, his ears pinned down.\n\n  \n\n\"Why?\", he said.\n\n  \n\n\"Because I don't want to share you with other furs anymore\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"But I thought you were okay with having an open relationship?\", Dennis asked.\n\n  \n\n\"Well I don't want to do this anymore. \u0026nbsp;I'm sick of this shit! \u0026nbsp;Hearing and seeing you getting fucked...I should be the one doing that, not some guy you found from who knows where!\", I said. \u0026nbsp;I didn't want to get angry, but it just came over me.\n\n  \n\nDennis grew even more upset, I could tell by the look on his face.\n\n  \n\n\"I didn't know you were coming. \u0026nbsp;I would've cancelled my meet up with Sven\", Dennis said.\n\n  \n\n\"Sorry I forgot to call first. \u0026nbsp;I wasn't thinking. \u0026nbsp;But I can't do this anymore, Dennis. \u0026nbsp;It's one thing to know you are having sex with other guys, it's another to actually see it\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"Please don't break up with me! \u0026nbsp;I'll give up my open relationship if it means you get to stay\", Dennis said, tears in his eyes.\n\n  \n\n\"Dennis, I learned years ago that staying in a relationship where both people don't want the same thing is not good for either person. \u0026nbsp;Aaron wanted me to be openly gay and I wanted to stay in the closet. \u0026nbsp;When he didn't get what he wanted, he refused to show me affection as punishment. \u0026nbsp;I stayed for much longer than I should have. \u0026nbsp;You and I clearly have different ideas on sex. \u0026nbsp;When I'm in a relationship with someone, I only want to have sex with that person, no one else. \u0026nbsp;Casual sex was fine when we were just friends with benefits, but when I fell in love with you I lost interest in other guys. \u0026nbsp;The only person I wanted to have sex with is you. \u0026nbsp;I still love you Dennis, but I want you to be happy and I know you won't be happy with me. \u0026nbsp;You'll resent me for taking away your freedom like Aaron resented me for not coming out. \u0026nbsp;It's best we break up\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"I don't want you to leave!\", Dennis said, crying.\n\n  \n\nI held him close and said, \"you'll find someone who's a better match than me. \u0026nbsp;You deserve that. \u0026nbsp;You're a great guy Dennis.\"\n\n  \n\n\"Thanks, but I still don't want you to go\", Dennis said.\n\n  \n\n\"You're welcome, but it's best we break up. \u0026nbsp;We aren't a good match for each other\", I said.\n\n  \n\n\"Can we at least be friends, just without the sex part?\", he asked.\n\n  \n\n\"Sure\", I said.\n\n  \n\nAnd with that, my second relationship ended. \u0026nbsp;I ended my lease in Selinsford and moved back to Fox Hollow full-time. \u0026nbsp;I didn't think I was going to be too hurt this time. \u0026nbsp;After all, I've already been through one breakup, surely I wouldn't be in as much pain as I was with Aaron. \u0026nbsp;But I was in pain, a lot of it. \u0026nbsp;I moped around a lot for the next couple of months, until I got sick of it. \u0026nbsp;I decided a tour was necessary, so in October 2010 I set out for a small tour, covering just the Fox empire. \u0026nbsp;Performing inspired me to write music again and in 2011 I released my first album in five years. \u0026nbsp;My fans loved it, which made me feel good about myself. \u0026nbsp;I spent the next couple of years touring and recording until I took a break in 2015. \u0026nbsp;It didn't last long though, as I suddenly got isnpired to try my hand at writing a novel. \u0026nbsp;I still haven't finished it yet and even the title has been difficult to come up with. \u0026nbsp;Let's just say it involves heavy metal music and vampires. \u0026nbsp;I stepped away from it and wrote my memoirs, which you have been reading. \u0026nbsp;I quite enjoyed writing this. \u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n\nI guess I'll end this with a quick update on some of the people you've seen. \u0026nbsp;Eric is working on some grand concept album. \u0026nbsp;He's been at it since 2014, and from what he told me it's going to be epic. \u0026nbsp;Vlad and Ritchie decided to compete on The Amazing Race TV show. \u0026nbsp;I wish them the best of luck. \u0026nbsp;Bob currently composes music for video games. \u0026nbsp;I never knew he was into gaming, but it turns out he loves RPGs so much that he got a job at the Royal Software House making music for them. \u0026nbsp;Dennis and I are still friends and we talk over the phone on occasion, but we don't have sex. \u0026nbsp;Tobias' career took a huge downturn after his outburst in 2006 and last I heard he was playing clubs out in the country somewhere. \u0026nbsp;As for Aaron, well that's an interesting one. \u0026nbsp;You see, in 2012 I ran into him at a record store while browsing the vinyl section. \u0026nbsp;We started talking and we became friends, but not boyfriends again. \u0026nbsp;We still talk sometimes and we even collaborated again musically. \u0026nbsp;He's married now to a fox named Henry, one of Max III's cousins. \u0026nbsp;I was quite surprised, even more so when I was invited to the wedding. \u0026nbsp;Now here I am still single. \u0026nbsp;Honestly, I don't know if I'll ever try for a boyfriend again. \u0026nbsp;I don't really feel the need anymore. \u0026nbsp;I'm happy for those who have found love like Aaron, but for me maybe I'm just better off alone. \u0026nbsp;Maybe my opinion on that will change, but that's where I'm at right now. \u0026nbsp;Now I'm sure some of you are wondering \"but Phillip what about sex, don't you still want that?\" \u0026nbsp;And to answer that question, well let's just say I have some royal friends who help me out with that. \u0026nbsp;I think I'll end the book here. \u0026nbsp;Thank you so much to all my fans, I love you guys. \u0026nbsp;Peace out.\n\n  \n  \n\n","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1038122-the-ballad-of-phillip-chapter-8.json"}