{"sf1_id":1161204,"sf2_id":null,"title":"Loving and Lusting for My Brother Chapter 4","author":"Vikthefox","words":1993,"posted_at":"2017-03-19T23:58:00.000Z","tags":["Drama","Fox","Incest","Male","Wolf"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1161204-loving-and-lusting-for-my-brother-chapter-4","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/1161204","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=1161204\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"#4 of Loving and Lusting for My Brother","content":"Author's Note: Thanks to all my friends, watchers, and viewers.\u0026nbsp; You guys are great!\u0026nbsp; This chapter is from multiple POVs.\n\n**Loving and Lusting for My Brother**\n\n**Chapter 4**\n\n**_Malakai's POV_**\n\nIs life crazy or what?\u0026nbsp; The most impossible of things happened to me, my brother had sex with me!\u0026nbsp; Words fail to describe the sheer joy I got from being pounded by Rodya.\u0026nbsp; Thing is, I wished he wouldn't feel so guilty about it.\u0026nbsp; I really wanted to do it again with him, but he was not having it.\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"No Malakai.\u0026nbsp; What we did was wrong and should never be done again,\" Rodya said the day after we had sex.\n\n\"It was great.\u0026nbsp; Don't be so ashamed about it.\u0026nbsp; We're two consenting adults and what we do is our business, not anyone else's,\" I said.\n\nRodya just ignored me and went upstairs to his room.\u0026nbsp; He and I didn't talk to each other for the rest of the day.\u0026nbsp; I shouldn't be surprised by this behavior.\u0026nbsp; He's always been stubborn and moody ever since we were kits and he's always had, how should I put this, guilt issues.\u0026nbsp; Anytime he makes a mistake or does something wrong, even the tiniest of things, can set him off and ruin his mood.\u0026nbsp; I lost count how many times I had to calm him down over things like only getting a \"B\" on a test when he wanted an \"A.\"\u0026nbsp; But each time I was there for him because I loved him.\u0026nbsp; First as a brother, but more recently as something more.\u0026nbsp; So I shouldn't be so hurt when he gets so anguished over us having sex, and yet I am.\u0026nbsp; Nothing I say seems to change his mind or get him to calm down and that frustrates me.\u0026nbsp; I spent the rest of the weekend in my basement on my old computers.\u0026nbsp; I flipped through a box of floppy disks when I located one labeled \"X\".\u0026nbsp; It was the only disk in my collection that I didn't want Rodya to see.\u0026nbsp; It contained the only way I could express my incestuous desires without actually having sex with Rodya: erotic fiction and art.\u0026nbsp; This disk was probably the smuttiest disk in the whole country.\u0026nbsp; It contained dozens of badly drawn art featuring my brother and myself doing anything and everything to each other.\u0026nbsp; There were documents too where I unleashed my deepest sexual fantasies.\u0026nbsp; I probably sound ridiculous, but this was my way of fulfilling my desires.\u0026nbsp; But now I've experienced the real thing, was this disk even worth keeping?\u0026nbsp; Should I destroy it?\u0026nbsp; After all, what's the point in reading these old fantasy stories again if you finally got what you wanted from your brother only to learn he'll never pleasure you again.\u0026nbsp; I sighed and decided to drown my sorrows in a game so I decided to boot up my Pentium II PC running Windows 95 and play some pinball for awhile.\n\nGoing back to work on Monday wasn't fun.\u0026nbsp; My brother was still on my mind and the thought of never having sex with him again was depressing.\u0026nbsp; I work as an IT guy at a local college.\u0026nbsp; It's not a glamorous job, but it pays well.\u0026nbsp; Work gave me somewhat of a distraction thanks to two unreliable projectors I had to fix.\u0026nbsp; After that bit of frustration, I came home to find Rodya sitting in the living room waiting for me.\u0026nbsp; I was hoping he had changed his mind about having sex, but today was not my day.\n\n\"Malakai, I have great news!\u0026nbsp; Dr. Irina Schneebrot is coming to the bookstore on Friday!\u0026nbsp; She's an expert on incest, I can talk to her and ask her for help,\" Rodya said with an enthusiasm that was kind of off putting.\n\n\"Rodya, we don't need help we're just fine,\" I said.\n\n\"No we are not!\u0026nbsp; We are sick foxes and need to be cured so we can become normal!\" Rodya snapped.\n\n\"We're fine, I keep telling you that!\" I said, getting agitated.\n\n\"This is not normal!\u0026nbsp; You need to find yourself a real boyfriend, not settling for your own brother,\" Rodya said.\n\n\"I'm not settling!\u0026nbsp; I want to be with you romantically as well as sexually,\" I said.\n\n\"You can find someone else.\u0026nbsp; You're an attractive fox, someone will want you I know,\" Rodya said.\n\n\"Yeah right.\u0026nbsp; Aside from you, the only people I attract are assholes.\u0026nbsp; I don't want to be hurt again,\" I said, images of my ex's running through my head.\n\n\"There are nice guys out there,\" Rodya said, trying to reassure me.\n\n\"You're the only one I trust in this world.\u0026nbsp; I know that you love me and care about me.\u0026nbsp; I know you wouldn't beat me like Harold did,\" I said.\u0026nbsp; Just saying his name was enough to make my stomach turn. Rodya flinched as I spoke that name.\n\n\"He's not going to get you, Malakai I'll always be here to protect you.\u0026nbsp; Still we shouldn't be having sex and we shouldn't be lovers\", Rodya said.\n\nTears started welling up in my eyes as I said, \"But I love you so much, Rodya.\u0026nbsp; I only want to be with you.\" I gave him a tight hug as I cried.\n\n\"It's going to be okay Malakai.\u0026nbsp; Maybe Dr. Schneebrot can help you overcome your trust issues too,\" Rodya said.\u0026nbsp; At that point, I was fed up.\u0026nbsp; Why must he go on about this doctor?\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"All I need is you, I don't need a shrink to tell me how to live my life!\" I said, storming out of the living room and retreating to my basement, locking the door behind me.\u0026nbsp; Rodya kept shouting at me to come back, but I refused to listen.\u0026nbsp;\n\nWe didn't talk again for the rest of the week.\n\n**_Rodya's POV_**\n\nSo my plan to convince my brother to be cured didn't go over so well.\u0026nbsp; I was baffled as to how he could not see how wrong incest is.\u0026nbsp; I decided that I would at least get myself cured.\u0026nbsp; Maybe if Malakai saw the results he would finally agree to a cure.\u0026nbsp; Friday couldn't come soon enough, as I was nervous as hell about how to approach the subject to her.\u0026nbsp; I couldn't do so during the event because it was for customers only, but if I could get a private word in afterwards maybe I could get the help my brother and I sorely needed.\u0026nbsp; It was only a two-hour event, but it felt like twenty hours as I thought over and over again how to ask her for help.\u0026nbsp; I was simply there to make sure everything went smoothly, no rowdy customers or anything like that.\u0026nbsp; Dr. Schneebrot looked just as she did in the picture I saw of her and her voice was the same cold, serious tone I had heard in my dream.\u0026nbsp; I was a little scared of her to be honest; I felt a shiver up my spine every time she spoke.\u0026nbsp; When the event ended and she started walking towards the back door, I summoned up all of my courage and walked up to her.\n\n\"Hi...I...um...just wanted to say that I love your work,\" I said, thinking it was the best way to start off this rather embarrassing conversation.\n\n\"I see, which of my books have you read?\" she said.\n\n\"Well, I just discovered your work, so I've only read one, but I really found your book on incest to be quite interesting\", I said.\n\n\"Oh that old thing.\u0026nbsp; I would love to write a second volume, but I am having trouble finding subjects for my research.\u0026nbsp; You wouldn't happen to know anyone would you?\" she asked.\n\n\"Well...actually I do.\u0026nbsp; You see I need your help.\u0026nbsp; I want you to cure me,\" I said, shaking with nervousness as I spoke.\n\n\"Hmmm...I see.\u0026nbsp; Come see me on Monday at 2 PM sharp\", she said, handing me a business card with her name and address.\n\n\"Thank you very much\", I said, hope filled me as I held the card in my paw.\n\n\"You're welcome,\" she said and for the first time that day she smiled, a smile that was kind of...creepy.\u0026nbsp; I didn't care at the time, though, since I was bursting with euphoria.\u0026nbsp; Thankfully, my shift was over because I was so happy that I don't think I could have concentrated on work.\u0026nbsp; When I got home I danced around and shouted, \"I'm gonna be normal!\"\u0026nbsp; As I did Malakai came home from work and looked at me like I was nuts.\n\n\"Rodya?\" he asked.\n\n\"Oh Malakai, great news!\u0026nbsp; I have an appointment with Dr. Schneebrot on Monday!\u0026nbsp; I'm gonna be cured!\" I shouted with glee.\n\nMalakai merely shook his head and went downstairs.\u0026nbsp; I disregarded his reaction and happily hummed a tune as I made myself dinner.\u0026nbsp; I just wished Malakai had been happy for me.\u0026nbsp; The weekend felt like it went on forever because Malakai and I didn't talk at all.\u0026nbsp; I felt bad, but I figured that one day he would see the light, so I tried to ignore my feelings of guilt for making him upset.\n\n**_Malakai's POV_**\n\nThis weekend sucked!\u0026nbsp; Rodya was on a weird cloud nine about Dr. Schneebrot and I was so fucking tired of it that I decided to stay out of the house as long as possible.\u0026nbsp; I tried to distract myself with the local arcade, but it didn't work for long so I decided to take refuge at the local library.\u0026nbsp; I browsed the \"New Fiction\" section for a while, but came up empty-pawed.\u0026nbsp; I was quite curious as to who this \"Dr. Schneebrot\" was, so I did some research using one of the library's iMacs.\u0026nbsp; What I found was nothing special at first, she graduated from the University of Fox Hollow in 1990 with a P.H.D. in Psychology with a concentration in sexuality and worked as a therapist for the university's students until about 2007 when she became a published author.\u0026nbsp; What was weird though was that I could not find any contact info.\u0026nbsp; How did Rodya have an appointment with her if I can't find the location of her office or her phone number?\u0026nbsp; Are they going to meet up at her house or something?\u0026nbsp; Confused and concerned, I decided to return to the house only to find that Rodya was not home.\u0026nbsp; I decided to call his best friend and fuckbuddy Denver Hollister to see if Rodya was with him.\n\n\"Hello,\" Denver said.\n\n\"Hey Denver, I'm Rodya's brother, Malakai.\u0026nbsp; Is my brother with you?\u0026nbsp; He's not home and I wanted to talk to him about something urgently,\" I said.\n\n\"Nope, he just left about a minute ago,\" Denver said.\n\nI was about to hang up until I remembered something; Denver used to talk to a therapist when he was at the U of FH around 2005 or so.\u0026nbsp; Maybe he would remember Dr. Schneebrot?\n\n\"Oh alright, thanks.\u0026nbsp; Can I ask you something else?\" I said.\n\n\"Sure, go ahead,\" he replied.\n\n\"Do you remember a Dr. Schneebrot from the university?\" I asked.\n\n\"Oh I remember her, she was my first therapist.\u0026nbsp; She really creeped me out,\" Denver said.\n\n\"Why?\" I asked.\n\n\"Her voice was so cold and she never smiled.\u0026nbsp; I always felt so uncomfortable around her.\u0026nbsp; The campus during my sophomore year was bad enough already.\u0026nbsp; The murders, the missing people, the fires...all I wanted was help for my depression and I barely got any help from her at all.\u0026nbsp; Cold hearted, fucking bitch.\u0026nbsp; She didn't give a shit about any of her patients.\u0026nbsp; She was probably just in it for the money.\u0026nbsp; I don't know why she quit, but I'm glad she did,\" Denver said, his voice tense.\n\nI didn't want to make him upset, so I dropped the subject and thanked him again for his help and hung up.\u0026nbsp; One thing was for sure, I trusted this doctor even less than I did before.\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n  \n\n","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1143365-loving-and-lusting-for-my-brother-chapter-3.json"}