# Nonexistent

Author: DrianaLeSouris
Tags: Heartbreak, History, Love, broken heart, dedication, she, time

#5 of Poetry

Written for Mr. Psycho

Time used to be nonexistent.&nbsp;  
Until the tick tock became louder every minute.  
I used to think I would never settle.&nbsp;  
Yet, here I was waking up every day by your side.&nbsp;  
  
  
I used to think the nights we laid there, were never going to be the hardest.&nbsp;  
I used to think the nights we laid there, were never going to be the thoughts that drowned us.&nbsp;  
I used to think the nights we laid there, were never going to be the ones that hurt the most.&nbsp;  
  
  
Time used to be circular.&nbsp;  
Time used to be nonexistent.&nbsp;  
Time has become linear.&nbsp;  
The tick tock became louder every passing minute.&nbsp;  
  
  
I used to think I wouldn't beg.&nbsp;  
Now I'm here on my knees..&nbsp;  
Begging..&nbsp;  
Begging once more.&nbsp;  
Begging to know.. If you really ever cared.&nbsp;  
  
  
I used to think I would never settle.&nbsp;  
I used to think I would never find that one perfect girl.&nbsp;  
I used to think I would never stop waking up every day by your side.&nbsp;  
I used to think I would never be so foolish to lose you to them games.&nbsp;  
  
  
Time used to be a factor in silence.&nbsp;  
Time used to be silence in the dark.&nbsp;  
Time used to be darkness in the empty hole.&nbsp;  
Time used to be so promising but now I have a missing heart.  
  
  
Time used to be nonexistent.&nbsp;  
Until the tick tock became louder every minute.  
I used to think I would never settle.&nbsp;  
Yet, here I was waking up every day without your smile.&nbsp;  
  
  
Can we stay here, you and I?&nbsp;  
Can we stay here in frozen time?  
Can we stay here if we rewind the time?&nbsp;  
Can we stay here, you and I?&nbsp;  
  
  
I used to think I would never reach over and find an empty bed.&nbsp;  
I used to think I would never walk into an empty house.&nbsp;  
I used to think I would never call your name and get no answer.&nbsp;  
I used to think I would never walk around to find my missing heart.&nbsp;  
  
  
Time used to be a factor in silence.&nbsp;  
Time used to be silence in the dark.&nbsp;  
Time used to be darkness in what I thought was love.&nbsp;  
Time used to be the key to my heart.&nbsp;  
  
  
I used to think the nights we laid there, were going to be our final moments.&nbsp;  
I used to think the nights we laid there, were going to be what stop the world.&nbsp;  
I used to think the nights we laid there, were going to be memories we shared.&nbsp;  
I used to think the nights we laid there, were going to be you and I.&nbsp;  
  
  
Time used to be circular.&nbsp;  
Time used to be nonexistent.&nbsp;  
Time has become linear.&nbsp;  
The tick tock became draining every passing minute.&nbsp;  
  
  
I used to think I wouldn't beg.&nbsp;  
Now I'm here on my knees..&nbsp;  
Begging..&nbsp;  
Begging once more.&nbsp;  
Begging to know.. If you will ever return?  
  
  
Can I just see you one more time?&nbsp;  
Can I game with you one more time?&nbsp;  
Can I call you one more time?&nbsp;  
Can I ask you to come home one more time?&nbsp;  
  
  
Now the time has passed and I no longer care.&nbsp;  
Now the time has passed and I no longer beg.&nbsp;  
Now the time has passed and I no longer ask for you.&nbsp;  
Now the time has passed and I still mend my heart.&nbsp;

Source: https://sofurry.com/s/r177klN1
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