# Didn't

Author: DrianaLeSouris
Tags: Death, Driana, Drianalesouris, God, Heartbreak, Inspirational, Lost, Love, Pain, Pained, Story, ambition, hope, life, personal, sadness

#8 of Poetry

I didn't know how to reach..&nbsp;  
I didn't know how to tell you..&nbsp;  
I didn't know it would hurt this much.&nbsp;  
  
But what I did know,&nbsp;  
Were the tears on my pillow.&nbsp;  
  
I didn't know you would leave me..  
I didn't know I became another face..  
I didn't know we were perfect until the day I couldn't reach..  
  
Now I lay here with the tears on my pillow.&nbsp;  
Now I lay here regretting those words..&nbsp;  
Running a hand over the spot you laid on.&nbsp;  
Wishing you were here one more time.&nbsp;  
  
I am nothing but a face.&nbsp;  
I am nothing but a failure.&nbsp;  
I am nothing without your heart.&nbsp;  
I am but existing.&nbsp;  
  
Call me a fool.&nbsp;  
Call me a liar.&nbsp;  
Call me a broken doll.&nbsp;  
  
A doll..&nbsp;  
A broken doll..&nbsp;  
A shattered doll.&nbsp;  
Mend me please.&nbsp;  
Mend me with your touch.&nbsp;  
Make it all better and take this suffocation away.&nbsp;  
  
I look to the heavens and I cry your name.&nbsp;  
I look to the heavens and I beg for one more chance.&nbsp;  
I look to the heavens and I see no light..&nbsp;  
Now, I'm forced to look at hell and see Satan laughing at me.&nbsp;  
  
"HaHaHa."  
Little mouse..  
"It's too late." Satan but taunted like a little game.&nbsp;  
  
I didn't know how to reach..&nbsp;  
I didn't know how to tell you..&nbsp;  
I didn't know the pain until you were no more.  
  
I couldn't even kill you with my own two hands.&nbsp;  
I couldn't even begin to rescue you from the toxicity we breathe.  
  
I cry. I cry. And I cry.&nbsp;  
  
A broken doll that just couldn't reach.&nbsp;  
If you were but alive,&nbsp;  
I wouldn't be begging no more.&nbsp;  
  
I would rejoice.&nbsp;  
I would rejoice this pain.&nbsp;  
I would rejoice this moments nightmare.&nbsp;  
  
Hear my voice.&nbsp;  
Hear my sorrow..&nbsp;  
And grant me another 'morrow.&nbsp;  
  
I didn't know how to reach..&nbsp;  
I didn't know how to tell you..&nbsp;  
I didn't know how lucky I was until the first tear drop; dropped.&nbsp;  
  
The time has stopped.&nbsp;  
My breath has frozen.&nbsp;  
Realization has become a poison.&nbsp;  
  
Tick. Tock.&nbsp;  
Tick. Tock.&nbsp;  
  
The clock tries to keep going.&nbsp;  
The clock that waits for no one.&nbsp;  
  
I didn't know how to reach.&nbsp;  
I didn't know how to tell you..&nbsp;  
I didn't know the cruelness of this thing called love.&nbsp;  
  
Now I sit here watching you go by.&nbsp;  
Now I sit here hearing your voice.&nbsp;  
Now I sit here going mad.  
  
Death all but mocked me.  
Love all but destroyed me.&nbsp;  
Your name, all but rescued me.&nbsp;  
Your voice, all but tortured me.&nbsp;  
  
I cry. I cry. And I cry.&nbsp;  
  
Its me now.&nbsp;  
My tears have dried.&nbsp;  
A broken doll sitting on a shelf watching you go by.&nbsp;  
  
My story ends.&nbsp;  
My mind escapes.&nbsp;  
My voice silenced.&nbsp;  
My breath no more.&nbsp;  
  
This is where we say goodbye.. Forever.&nbsp;

Source: https://sofurry.com/s/J1OX99Qe
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