{"sf1_id":1214436,"sf2_id":"rn9vZKK1","title":"Loil P.I.","author":"Jiblits","words":338,"posted_at":"2017-07-22T00:47:00.000Z","tags":["Murderer","Poem","Short Story","rough draft"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1214436-loil-p-i","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/rn9vZKK1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/eb/6e/eb6eebf2-d0b2-4021-b56c-6db29f125202","description":"","content":"Loil P.I.\u0026nbsp;\n\nRough draft (murderer series)\n\n\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; (Work in progress)\n\nBroken down to a frown , I see myself as such a clown\n\nAll around is a sound familiar to times I left behind\n\nTaking my pride at hear, \u0026 till the end, from the start, letting it slowly unwind\n\nBelow the lowest I feel, I find something real to grasp onto tightly\n\nA word of hope among so many hanging from their own rope, nothing left so lightly\n\nIt's understandable so clearly to me, I'm left filled with fear\n\nAmong the crowds, I walk about as if alone, only with death ever so near\n\nIt's not much to hold, not much to care for\n\nLeaving such a thought unfinished is if anything, enough, why need more...\n\nI'm fine, the shells aren't loaded as the barrel clanks on my teeth\u0026nbsp;\n\nAll the voices from all my current choices echo among the trigger beneath\u0026nbsp;\n\nIt's sickening really, what must one do to change from the forgotten, or strange\n\nTo simply find those who thought no the same, by a different name, yet, filled with the exact type of knowing...shame...\n\nIt's not enough to make a difference worth while\n\nSo respond back, when I cut you...some slack...\u0026 give the warmest mask with a heart based smile...\n\nToo much...too long...too many times, for stupid reasons, have I felt wrong...\n\nNot worth the effort it takes to remove problems that walk among the blind\n\nI do, all I can, \u0026 much more....jus out of control, in my own mind...\n\nFuck it...I'll do that as much as I can, until time, or one of them, puts me down, eternally making me quit...\n\nI'm tired, of no glossy red to mention in my sleep\n\nMy hands from shaking before I'm waking I need to keep...\n\n(Work in progress) (murderer series) (split personality)\n\n---Thanks for reading---\n\n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; ---Always---\n\n  \n  \n\n"}