{"sf1_id":1223876,"sf2_id":"3eg3zOWe","title":"Night thoughts - .7 - BECAUSE Y KNOT","author":"Jiblits","words":373,"posted_at":"2017-08-08T01:03:00.000Z","tags":["Poem","Short Story","slice of life","thought"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1223876-night-thoughts-7-because-y-knot","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/3eg3zOWe","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/5c/c2/5cc2aac8-8aa2-492f-b463-0a82ed1c9c42","description":"","content":"Night thoughts - 7. - BECAUSE Y KNOT\n\nThese days...\n\nTime keeps slowing down, fourth than I feel need be\n\nI keep losing sight, all wrongs somehow right, but not to me...\n\nTruth has become something numbing when spoken\u0026nbsp;\n\nMaking me at times, jus feel unreal, in someway broken\n\nI'm slipping further into a place I avoid like the plague\n\nThe solid foundations I walked on regularly are shadows of their past, just...vague...\n\nBecoming voices seem to want to guide my choices, \u0026 the end is further away\n\nI grit my teeth \u0026 smile, but beneath all the while, I breath uneasy into another day\n\nI feel A need to get farther from this truth become common place\n\nMy dreams waving on, I just keep giving chase...\n\nSomehow now, I gather feeling, but it's ever uneasy in the process\n\nThe clear thoughts have become clouded, just a mess...\n\nOne of which I've seen too often to know can be cleaned or fixed with ease\n\nEven now, against my morals, I find myself brought to my knees...\n\nDeliberate or Devine, I somehow feel a little, just a little fine...\n\nMaybe it's me, maybe it's time passing me by with such a chill\n\nLately, almost nothing brings me that wanted thrill...\n\nCold as ice, I walk among the puddles of people I thought firm in mind\n\nI still hear here, this echo of why I should remain gentle to them, to remain eternally kind...\n\nStill, as I move, I don't see all I used to enjoy...what used to be...\n\nWhat used to matter so...what mattered most...at least to me...\n\nEh, another chance, choice, reason...\n\nMaybe just stagnant in place for a moment...maybe better next season...\n\nRegardless, it is what it was always meant to become\n\nPerfect for many, as such, not to some...\n\nClouds still about, I whisper each shout\n\nKnowing they hear, but it falls on deaf ears all the same\n\nI have time...\u0026 for what's past, in a way, it's not meant to last...I only have ,yield to blame...\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;\n\nyeah... sounds about right... so...for that...I escape again to my dreams, \u0026 call it a day early...goodnight...\n\n---Thanks for reading---\n\n...if you have...\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; ---Always---\u0026nbsp;\n\n(been quite a day)\n\n  \n  \n\n"}