{"sf1_id":1309787,"sf2_id":"ynZDgrqe","title":"Darkness before me","author":"Felios","words":257,"posted_at":"2018-02-26T02:37:00.000Z","tags":["Depression","No-Yiff","Poetry","Real Life"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1309787-darkness-before-me","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/ynZDgrqe","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/57/88/5788828f-f350-413b-a8bb-f033515fe11e","description":"","content":"Before me see a well cold and solid\n\nI try to escape it but still it beckons\n\nbefore it I stand prostrate and rejected\n\nbut in its col dark depths I see my life reflected\n\nno mortal sin could bear the pain\n\nof events in my life dejected again and again\n\nI wish to break the cycle of dreams rejected\n\nbut in my mind a small light reflected\n\npain and pain again\n\nbut yet I solder on my friend\n\nsenselessly repeated\n\nI but wish them all deleted\n\nAtonement deep down inside\n\nwithout a shade to hide it\n\nam I good or bad an endless discussion to be had\n\nthese words I rite out of drink\n\nbut it gives me pause to think\n\ndo the words of my heart really matter\n\nor are the words from my heart just chatter\n\nI am shouting loudly in your ear\n\nbut it seams that its just words you hear\n\nmy mind locked in this endless cage of almost perfect rage\n\nso I'm cast out and washed out\n\ndose that mean you don't care about that certain thing that I hold dear\n\nExactly how I feel\n\nwasted used and abused all I hear is your excuse\n\nyou take until everything is used\n\nand leave nothing for me\n\nfor me\n\nfor me\n\nso hallow so empty\n\nI feel as if I am sinking\n\ndeeper down into this well\n\ndeeper down into my own hell\n\nthis all consuming fear\n\npulls me in my dear\n\nhonesty reflected\n\nout of life is this what I expected?\n\n  \n  \n\n"}