# I'm Sorry / She Loved / Help Yourself

Author: Jacob King
Tags: Depressing, Depression, Gun, Love, M/F, PINGAS, Poetry, Psychological, Romance, Sad, Suicide

It's been a while since I last wrote a serious poem.
To test myself, I attempted a writing challenge I gave my dear friend  Cons.
I challenged him to write a poem divided into three sections:
1) First-Person Point-of-View: I'm sorry
2) Third-Person Point-of-View: He/She was in love
3) Second-Person Point-of-View: You need help
A few years ago, on the Internet, I came across the following quote, "'I love you', 'I am sorry', and 'I need help' are the three hardest things for a human to say."
The quote always stuck with me, and I thought it would be interesting to try to write a poem that not only focued on those phrases, but also added a more dynamic element of perspective in narration (i.e. first-person versus third-person).
Creating the requirement of the three point-of-views, with one view per phrase, seemed appropriate for adding the aforementioned element of dynamic perspective.
This took approximately one hour and forty-one minutes to write.

_I am so sorry--No furman'd  
Ever have to witness the crime  
Beside this letter. Determined  
As I was, it was about time_

_To administer justice--to  
Quell the remorse, to make silent  
The ruminations that were so  
Loudly recalling an event_

_Of which I was a catalyst,  
A criminal, and a liar  
(Though my intentions did enlist  
Pure causes). A tireless fire_

_Raged with no direct translation  
For the suffering in my heart;  
Yet, no prose or definition  
Could dictate how she played a part--_

_No, a character--oh, if you  
Only knew the protagonist  
That she tried to be for me: blue  
Eyes, red fur, and gold heart. I missed_

_Her facade's only true window:  
Her smile. She always smiled  
Brightest when cold, dark crops would sow  
Her love in such patterns tiled_

_With misery and pain that I  
Harvested--I fucking killed her!  
Her heart wrapped tighter around my  
Love than the phone cord did the fur_

_Around her neck! I...if you are  
Still reading (before the police  
Come...before you forget our  
Dark moment, together), I--please..._

_You cannot be afraid to ask  
For help. Forget your pride! Forget  
Your ego! They will always task  
Your consciousness to make a bet_

_You may or may not win! Ask for  
help if you need it! She needed  
Help! I needed help! Please! Before  
It's too late to ask... \*BANG!\*_

Source: https://sofurry.com/s/XnrQNLEm