{"sf1_id":1377989,"sf2_id":"214052d1","title":"When 100% is 50%","author":"foundryfarm","words":271,"posted_at":"2018-10-17T17:03:00.000Z","tags":["Poem","furry"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1377989-when-100-is-50","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/214052d1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/5e/a9/5ea9bcfa-6286-49c9-9f27-6d99e38f2454","description":"","content":"_(April 18, 2018)_\n\n_These aren't fully my thoughts; I'd like to keep my relations private. But these are some feelings I have now, and what I think will be more prominent in the future._\n\nMy head is spinning round and round,  \nI can't see things properly, let alone hear sounds,  \nIt's scary when what you thought at first was right,  \nEven if you chose to have hope instead, with all your might.  \n  \nThey say love is a powerful emotion,  \nAnd I agree with what they say.  \nFor when you find that special someone,  \nThey turn the night into day.  \n  \nI put in my all, with much devotion,  \nI year to make them smile...  \n...to the point that I want to be with them physically,  \nEven if its just for a while.  \n  \nBut a while may not be what it seemed to be,  \nFor my devotion may be, in technical jargon, inefficient.  \nFor when you put in 100%, and they give you just 50%,  \nYou really don't feel that sense of contentment.  \n  \nYou see, there's no such thing as putting in your love 200%, or 300%,  \nBecause that's euphoria to me;  \nTo put your devotion into multiple people, and giving me that '100%'  \nIs putting me at misery.  \n  \nThey say jealousy is like a passing flu,  \nBut I really, highly disagree,  \nIt's that '100%', which is actually 50%,  \nThat's making me feel like I'm a tool.  \n  \nI guess I'll stop loving for a while;  \nI should have had less hope, right from the start...  \nthat while I was giving my all,  \nthey were giving me just a mere 50% of their heart.  \n  \n\n"}