{"sf1_id":140443,"sf2_id":null,"title":"Life Lost, Living Love","author":"RakuPup","words":341,"posted_at":"2010-04-20T07:56:00.000Z","tags":["Death","Eternal","Fire","Ghost","Love","Male","Pain","Poem","Poetry","Regret","life"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/140443-life-lost-living-love","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/140443","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=140443\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"","content":" **Life Lost, Living Love**\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nWaking up to the drumbeat  \nMy heart races with the panic of a millennium  \nThe fire scolds the flesh and burns away every drip of scum  \nThe scum of my past and the darkening future that lies ahead  \nI know that soon I will be facing an immortal dread  \nFor this night I can consider myself among the dead  \nI think of you as I slowly breathe my last goodbye  \nPlease don't even try, I know you cannot empathize  \nDieing out for the final time, it surely flows  \nThrough the ashes where the others lie in sweet repose  \nSlowly fading from the remains of a life so dear  \nMoving distant now, I know I've never felt this clear  \nWhat is left but a burnt corpse upon the lonely bed  \nI think of all the things I really wish I could have said  \nI can see you seeing through me, but you do not speak  \nFor you can't interpret this transparent entity  \nAs I slowly place a kiss....  \nUpon the lips which I've sought for  \nTen years to the day when I first saw my loved one  \nYour eyes full of joy and something untold begun  \nThe need for a boy who just can't get his shit straight  \nA boy who could fuck up and you would still love  \nForever...  \nWe make this endeavor  \nWaiting for you is like waiting for the world to end  \nYou know its coming, but you never really see it... friend  \nI think it's about time we find a way to push this through  \nI dream of one day laying face to face just holding you!  \nCause I... don't... ever want to sleep... alone  \nEternal rest will only come  \nOnce you have shown up here  \nAnd see what we've become  \nI do not plan to burden you for all of these countless years  \nBut know that I am watching over closely, keeping you from fears  \nJust know I'm here for you  \nWhatever you go through  \nSo for tonight, sleep tight.  \nMy love.\n\n  \n  \n\n"}