{"sf1_id":1432374,"sf2_id":null,"title":"The shade of our bond","author":"Forlore","words":732,"posted_at":"2019-03-18T00:38:00.000Z","tags":["Clean","Drama","Emotional","First Date","Heartbreak","Love","Real Life","Relationships","Sad","Story"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1432374-the-shade-of-our-bond","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/1432374","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=1432374\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"","content":"The shade of our bond  \n  \nCome by, come and sit with me  \nLet me tell you a story  \nA story that was  \nAnd what was to be  \n  \nA story of love  \na thought, a dream  \nA dream that grows thinner  \nThe withering of our team  \n  \nWhat could have been  \nWhat would have been?  \nDo I stand alone  \nin this shade of our bond?  \n  \nDays have since passed  \nSince I knew you so well  \nPassed away  \nTime moves so fast  \n  \nWas it, that I never told you  \nNever told you  \nWhen you spoke to me in silence  \nI searched so hard for your reliance  \n  \nWhen I met you  \nfor the first time  \nWe walked in a circle  \nAnd I remember you told me  \nTold me to follow the sound  \n  \nThen, I first saw you  \nYou were looking around  \nAnd we met, and we embraced  \nAnd we went off together  \n  \nI was so scared, it was thrilling  \nA new experience shared  \nGiven time willing  \nOur dream grew then  \n  \nTogether, we were  \nCould we fight forever  \nDid not our future shine bright  \nA longing fulfilled?  \n  \nI idealize you now  \nHigh on that pedestal  \nUnreachable  \nIs it not alone there  \n  \nAt times, when we stopped  \nWe stopped fighting the world  \nAnd then we fought eachother  \nBiting, with words and another  \n  \n\n\u0026nbsp;And I remember  \nI would howl for you  \nAnd we would take it back  \nTogether  \n  \nAs we passed along  \nWe moved through a time  \nNot all roses  \nNot all sunshine  \nWas I not there for you?  \n  \nI gave you my heart  \nlaid it bear  \nAs I muttered to you  \nEncouragement, strenght  \n  \nTo overcome your past  \nYour hardships and pain  \nI would take it all on  \nEven if it would be my bane  \n  \nI told myself, my conviction  \nI found in you, a part  \nA part of myself  \nA feeling exclusive  \n  \nTo be close  \nClose to a nature  \nI had left undisturbed  \nWith you I found myself  \nWild at heart, deserved  \n  \nSo we went down a long road  \nIt came, trodden  \nOr was it clean?  \nMy part was lost  \n  \nI lost track of my time  \nTrack of the author  \nI stopped writing my story  \nAnd in the shade of our bond  \nI slowly erode.  \n  \nThen we lived together  \nYou were my pillar  \nStone, my shelter against the weather  \nThough I could come to you  \nMany times, I didn't feel consoled  \n  \nAnd so came our sunday  \nRainswept and cold  \nI asked you before  \nYou spoke to me in silence  \n  \nI gave you no more hug  \nI told you  \nWe should do something  \nTogether  \nLike in the old days  \n  \nBut you spoke to me in silence  \nYou left me alone  \nAnd in my mind I was crying  \nTelling you to keep hold  \n  \n\n\u0026nbsp;Of this bond that grows thinner  \n  \nI felt so angry then  \nAnd I spoke in silence  \nAnd we were silent together  \nAnd you left me again  \n  \nThen came the last week  \nI waited for you  \nWaited for that call  \nYou waited for me  \nWaiting for that call  \n  \nAnd so, we spoke  \nTogether in silence  \nTogether, alone  \n  \nAnd when I saw you then  \nYou told me   \nWe are too different  \nThat we cannot be  \nTogether, no more  \n  \nI did not accept this  \nthis explanation, simple  \nYou were my pillar  \nEven if you were stone  \nCold, as our sunday  \nI stood in this shade of our bond  \nI felt that we were growing stiller  \n  \nMy reality dawned that day  \nI told you I would be there  \nforever  \nYou pushed me away  \n  \nI would support you  \nAsk you, what would you need  \nBut when I needed that support  \nYou told me in short  \nit was my choice  \nNot your problem  \n  \nThe shade of our bond grew thicker  \nI realized, came to a conclusion  \nYou took it all for granted  \nA thing I never was given  \n  \nWords that were unspoken  \nWhen you never broke the silence  \nThe breakdown of communcation  \nIt softly strangled  \nOur bond became thinner  \n  \nAnd now a month later  \nYou left me these voids  \nLeft me, my pillar  \nAnd as you walked away  \n  \n\n\u0026nbsp;A piece fell off  \n  \nI found myself again  \nAlong a rubble of fear  \nAlong a trail of a tear  \n  \nAfter all is said  \nAll that is done  \nThat cold, rainy sunday  \nI spoke to you in silence  \nBut maybe, what I realy wanted  \nTo tell you  \n  \nIs that I loved you,  \nAnd I missed you.  \n  \n\n"}