{"sf1_id":156863,"sf2_id":"ePdAN0Ye","title":"Inner Struggle-chapter 4.5- The inhibitor","author":"furcenary","words":348,"posted_at":"2010-06-26T19:26:00.000Z","tags":["Emotional","Fox","Gay","Love","M/M","Romance","Suicide","Wolf"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/156863-inner-struggle-chapter-4-5-the-inhibitor","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/ePdAN0Ye","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/06/53/065385ff-7d5b-4131-9733-6d3a49153c14","description":"#9 of Inner Struggle","content":" **Warning:** _this story includes romantic situations between gay anthropomorphic characters_\n\nchapter-4.5- The inhibitor\n\nTo: [[email\u0026nbsp;protected]](/cdn-cgi/l/email-protection)\n\nFrom: [[email\u0026nbsp;protected]](/cdn-cgi/l/email-protection)  \nCC: asdfjkl\n\nsubject: R.I.P.\n\nDear Chase,  \n\u0026nbsp;I know you are in a better place right now, reading this on a cloud of happiness. I'm sorry that I couldn't be there for you sooner and now I have to live with myself. I truly wish I could have seen you one last time. Some days I keep thinking what if I would've been there before your accident, would it have worked out between us? It pains me to move on, I really hoped that my letter would reach you in time but I guess time has a way of interrupting true happiness. I hope I can someday move on but as of right now the pain is unbearable. I'm not sure why I still continue to write to you maybe its because I really need you and this way I feel like you are embracing my message.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nTo: [[email\u0026nbsp;protected]](/cdn-cgi/l/email-protection)\n\nFrom: [[email\u0026nbsp;protected]](/cdn-cgi/l/email-protection)  \nCC: sdfsignd\n\nsubject: Please forgive me Chase!\n\nDear Chase,\n\n\u0026nbsp;I know you wouldn't have stooped so low as to do this but I must be with you quickly, be it this world or the next. I hope that we can meet up in the afterlife, even though I was an atheist you've given me hope. what you've given me is not just a reason to live but a reason to die. I haven't decided how I want to go out yet but when it hits me you'll understand. I admire the fact that I gave you a reason to keep pushing forward, but as much as I can benchpress I will never be strong enough to live on without you. Consider this my last words on this world but my first thought in the next\n\n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;.........willing to die for you, Kevin\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Inner Struggle","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/156850-inner-struggle-chapter-3-5-bad-timing.json","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/156899-inner-struggle-chapter-5-the-catalyst.json"}}