# Inner Struggle-chapter 4.5- The inhibitor Author: furcenary Tags: Emotional, Fox, Gay, Love, M/M, Romance, Suicide, Wolf #9 of Inner Struggle **Warning:** _this story includes romantic situations between gay anthropomorphic characters_ chapter-4.5- The inhibitor To: [[email protected]](/cdn-cgi/l/email-protection) From: [[email protected]](/cdn-cgi/l/email-protection) CC: asdfjkl subject: R.I.P. Dear Chase,  I know you are in a better place right now, reading this on a cloud of happiness. I'm sorry that I couldn't be there for you sooner and now I have to live with myself. I truly wish I could have seen you one last time. Some days I keep thinking what if I would've been there before your accident, would it have worked out between us? It pains me to move on, I really hoped that my letter would reach you in time but I guess time has a way of interrupting true happiness. I hope I can someday move on but as of right now the pain is unbearable. I'm not sure why I still continue to write to you maybe its because I really need you and this way I feel like you are embracing my message.   To: [[email protected]](/cdn-cgi/l/email-protection) From: [[email protected]](/cdn-cgi/l/email-protection) CC: sdfsignd subject: Please forgive me Chase! Dear Chase,  I know you wouldn't have stooped so low as to do this but I must be with you quickly, be it this world or the next. I hope that we can meet up in the afterlife, even though I was an atheist you've given me hope. what you've given me is not just a reason to live but a reason to die. I haven't decided how I want to go out yet but when it hits me you'll understand. I admire the fact that I gave you a reason to keep pushing forward, but as much as I can benchpress I will never be strong enough to live on without you. Consider this my last words on this world but my first thought in the next                                                                                 .........willing to die for you, Kevin Source: https://sofurry.com/s/ePdAN0Ye Part of the series Inner Struggle Previous: https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/156850-inner-struggle-chapter-3-5-bad-timing.md Next: https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/156899-inner-struggle-chapter-5-the-catalyst.md