{"sf1_id":1593965,"sf2_id":"0mvaBgQe","title":"Eternal Vigilant Companion","author":"AmunetSunfire","words":356,"posted_at":"2020-06-22T23:08:00.000Z","tags":["Anubis","Depression","Ending","Happy","Poetry","lyrics"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1593965-eternal-vigilant-companion","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/0mvaBgQe","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=1593965\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"#1 of Poems/Lyrics\n\nI wrote this about 2 years ago when my depression began to set in.","content":"I live in a world where nothing changes\n\nNo effort may slay the beast within.\n\nThere is no hope from above\n\nNor any promise from below.\n\nArms reach out from within\n\nReach out above and strangle hope\n\nReach out below and stumble resolve\n\nReach out betwixt and shackle strength.\n\nTears fall dry and silent from hollow eyes\n\nUpon voiceless whispers whimpered into the night.\n\nDoes no one listen or can no one hear?\n\nLook out upon this vast barren valley\n\nBreathe in the vapors\n\nTaste the rain.\n\nTake a perilous step with broken sandals\n\nBask in the sun\n\nFeel the pain.\n\nFeel the crunch of sand beneath cracked weathered toes\n\nWander the desert\n\nCircles again and again.\n\nThere is not much left within this hollow tomb\n\nThe candle of this soul gutters and shall burn no more.\n\nA life wasted in remorse a future ruined with regret.\n\nBody ravaged by gluttony\n\nMind starved by neglect\n\nFingers crushed without creativity\n\nHeart putrefied by hate and anger.\n\nI wander blind and fatigued\n\nWith a madness that silently and gleefully eviscerates.\n\nAll passion has bled from me\n\nAll joy has rotted away\n\nLook out upon this vast barren valley\n\nBreathe in the vapors\n\nTaste the rain.\n\nTake a perilous step with broken sandals\n\nBask in the sun\n\nFeel the pain.\n\nFeel the crunch of sand beneath cracked weathered toes\n\nWander the desert\n\nCircles again and again.\n\nI hear a voice calling out to me from ages bygone\n\nA presence felt: ethereal, regal.\n\nFaintly carried upon airless winds cold and stabbing\n\nA voice that says:\n\nBreathe a gentle sigh of relief\n\nAnd carry your burden no more\n\nCast it upon my broad black back\n\nAnd hoist yourself into my arms\n\nWhisper your worries into my jackals ears\n\nAnd let me bear you towards the light.\n\nMy child shall never be alone shall never be afraid shall never be naked\n\nMy child shall never be unloved shall never be thirsty shall never be cold\n\nMy child shall be free shall be whole shall be pure\n\nMy child shall be nourished shall be strong shall be vindicated\n\nMy child shall be\n\nReborn\n\n  \n  \n\n"}