{"sf1_id":162919,"sf2_id":"k1V6Z9A1","title":"Strike Me Down","author":"Grey Wulf","words":482,"posted_at":"2010-07-19T19:51:00.000Z","tags":["Heartbreak","Poetry","Rhyme"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/162919-strike-me-down","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/k1V6Z9A1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/a4/35/a435ac7b-9b0e-4f0e-b592-f15bb885608a","description":"","content":"----  \nDirected to a straight man, who I can never be with, I feel this every day, hoping it will lift.  \n•  \nI love you, Sawyer, more than anything, ask what you will, and I will bring.  \n----  \nPick me up then strike me down, I will still look upon you with a frown,  \nmy heart says yes yet you say no, you put me through emotional inferno,  \nI treat you with love and respect, from you I don't much expect,  \nto you I am little more than a friend, why cannot the rules bend?  \nMy only wish is to be with you, but if I ask you now I know I'm through,  \nhelp me now in my time of need, or do the disastrous feelings breed,  \nout and away, but they will come some day,  \nto feed on what makes you sad, and eventually it will make you bad.  \n\u0026nbsp;I wish none of this to come to pass, then through me it would trespass,  \ngiving me an unearthly wound, then to it I would be forever bound,  \nthe most unhappy I would be, not ever being able to go free.  \nSo I live in constant anguish and pain, but ever so happy just to see you again,  \nyou I love far too much, and this is only because you are out of touch,  \nI cannot help that you I love, it could be the work from up above,  \nperhaps they want me in pain, as long as I get to see you again.  \nI will love you for as long as I live, and still to me you are quite abusive,  \nI give you everything I can, but alas I am only a man.  \nLove is very powerful indeed they say, yet I wonder, does it count if you are gay?  \nWhat annoys me the most, would be something that I would usually boast,  \nyou held my hand and kissed me fake, and then did my heart truly break,  \nI took you to a military ball, then to you I did befall,  \nyou hurt my head and held me tight, oh such a hug with incredible might,  \nto me did you strafe, it was good, it was safe,  \nI felt so wonderful there, my head against your chest so fair,  \nit was the truly the most sincere, in that moment there was nothing to fear.  \nWe then partied like no tomorrow, in that time there was no sorrow,  \nthe next day, though, nothing changed,I asked you looked at me like I was deranged.  \nBut I then gave up no hope, wanting you, so perfectly sloped.  \nThen one after another, rejection came, I swore to myself I would cause you no pain,  \nwhat I went through I would happily relive, even though to my soul it is corrosive,  \nI would gladly try again, as long as I get to see you again.\n\n  \n  \n\n"}