{"sf1_id":162964,"sf2_id":"Jewo5Y9e","title":"Vengeance 24: After Merging","author":"The Truth is a Furry","words":630,"posted_at":"2010-07-19T23:25:00.000Z","tags":["Death","Digimon","M/F","Memories","No-Yiff","Renamon","Sad","Story Progression","Story Series","crying"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/162964-vengeance-24-after-merging","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/Jewo5Y9e","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/45/51/45510ba4-f37d-43d6-b6b2-82941379572c","description":"#8 of Vengeance","content":"V24: After Merging\n\nIt had been a day since we had biomerged for the first time. And odd things were happening. I had ideas that weren't mine in my head. I asked Renamon about it. She was back in the house. After the merge she seemed like she had stopped fearing me.\n\nNathan: Hey Renamon?\n\nRenamon: **absentmindedly** Um-hm?\n\nNathan: Since we biomerged I have been having weird thoughts. Like a compulsion to apologize to eat fish. Biomerging screw with peoples minds?\n\nRenamon: Oh, that? When you biomerge you become one in body and mind. Essentially you get some of the other person. Sorry I love fish!\n\nI look over to see what's she's doing. She had been reading one of my Fullmetal Alchemist books.\n\nNathan: You read FMA?\n\nRenamon: No, I just can't fight the urge to read them.\n\nNathan: Ah! Sorry thats one of my traits, you must have gotten it.\n\nShe went back to reading. Then I got an idea. Perhaps I had been exposed to her feelings towards me. There was a good chance! I took up a meditation position that Matt had taught me. I remembered that and I flood of thought entered my head.\n\nMatt: Hey Renamon!\n\nMatt kisses her, Matt holding her.\n\nMatt: I missed you!\n\nI saw countless days together!\n\nMatt: RENA!\n\nThen it shifted.\n\nMatt: not much time . . . get this to Omnimon . . . goodbye . . . my love . . .\n\nI sat up, I realized what I had just saw! Matt dieing in her arms!\n\nNathan: Going to the bathroom!\n\nI ran for the door. Went in, locked the door and jumped in the shower. I wouldn't let her hear me cry . . .\n\nRenamon's Perspective\n\nRenamon: MAN! I haven't enjoyed a book this much since Matt had showed me his!\n\nI was enjoying the book. Then I remembered Matt doing the same things with me. I closed the book and curled into myself, I felt to lonely.\n\nRenamon: I wish he was still here.\n\nThen a shift. Not a memory like when I merged with Matt, just a single emotion. Lonesomeness. It was like nothing I had ever known. It was crushing, not an emotion, a physical feeling! It crushed me like a black cloud, I couldn't even think. Then I flash of light, and another. Then I was filled with light. I looked into expecting a god? No, inside that light, was me.\n\nRenamon: How?\n\nThen I realized it was Nathan's feelings. I curled as tightly as I could and cried.\n\nBack with Nathan\n\nI got out of the shower. Still breathing shakily I started to dry. I was done crying but that image was still haunting me. Matt, soaked in blood, saying goodbye. I leaned over the toilet and vomited.\n\nNathan: How could I have been that dumb!? Asking her out! Her last boyfriend died not 6 months ago! IN HERE ARMS!\n\nI walked out of the bathroom and found Renamon curled in a ball. She was shaking and whimpering. I put my hand on her and gave her a shake.\n\nNathan: Renamon? Are you okay?\n\nShe uncurled and shot at me. Toppling me over she was on top of me, crying?\n\nRenamon: I'm sorry! I DIDN'T KNOW! Please forgive me!\n\nShe was sputtering and crying. Ever time I tried to get up she pinned me back down. Eventually her cry's subsided. She collapsed onto me. I gave her another little shake?\n\nNathan: Renamon? You alright?\n\nShe didn't move but I could feel her breathing. Sighing I heaved her over my shoulder and put her in my bed. I grabbed a blanket and jumped onto the couch.\n\nNathan: Couch will have to do. I wonder what got her so spooked?  \n\u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Vengeance","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/162739-vengeance-23-the-4th-tester.json","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/163324-vengeance-25-the-final-tester.json"}}