{"sf1_id":1753931,"sf2_id":"pnGyylMe","title":"A Fate Much Worse","author":"EmmaLycaonPictus","words":140,"posted_at":"2021-08-19T02:53:00.000Z","tags":["Canine","Dog","Personal piece","Poem","Poetry","Real Life","Spoken Word","Verse","WritingGroupChallenge","african wild dog","rap"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1753931-a-fate-much-worse","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/pnGyylMe","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/82/2e/822e8026-c6f4-4d06-a5c0-f6860e97377a","description":"#7 of Work and/or Other Life Related\n\nA little deeper something personal about me that I don't like very much to speak about with the public, but find it necessary to as part of my seek in treatment for it.","content":"Copyright © 2021 by Emma Marlene Oakley\n\n  \n\nLycaon Productions®\n\n  \n\nAll Rights Reserved.\n\n  \n  \n\nI don't wish this shit on no one,\n\n  \n\nAlways watching for my back,\n\n  \n\nDark in corner with my thoughts,\n\n  \n\nAlong with shitty flashbacks,\n\n  \n\nAll bout the shit that caused me pain,\n\n  \n\nLike those I trusted,\n\n  \n\nMy own mama,\n\n  \n\nAttempted suicide,\n\n  \n\nLived twice,\n\n  \n\nTo try and end my hurt and trauma,\n\n  \n\nSlience a voice that rings much louder,\n\n  \n\nThrough every rhyme and verse of poems,\n\n  \n\nThe motherfuckers who had wronged me,\n\n  \n\nSilent \"fuck you\" just to show em,\n\n  \n\nAlong with every panicked heart beat,\n\n  \n\nLong with every shallow breath,\n\n  \n\nPopping pills to head and stomach,\n\n  \n\nHang my head in pained regret,\n\n  \n\nI wish this plague was non existant,\u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n\nThe one called Post Traumatic Stress,\n\n  \n\nI still don't wish this shit on no one,\n\n  \n\nFucking fate much worse than death\n\n  \n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Work and/or Other Life Related","previous":"https://sofurry.com/s/B1QZZlze","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1753939-damned-to-do.json"}}