{"sf1_id":175886,"sf2_id":"7ejPgQ7n","title":"Squandered","author":"cge0361","words":333,"posted_at":"2010-09-06T12:21:00.000Z","tags":["Cyndaquil","Poetry","Pokemon","Quilava","Short","Short Story","Typhlosion","free verse"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/175886-squandered","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/7ejPgQ7n","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/ff/f9/fff9cd4e-df59-4f2e-bd40-e7c909c6895f","description":"#1 of Odds, Ends, and April 1st's","content":"I remember the day that I received my first pokemon.  \n\"Today, I am a young man, like my older classmates!\"  \nYou smelled like the kennel; as I bathed you, I discovered your secret.  \n\"What are the odds I'd get stuck with a girl cyndaquil?\"  \nI never wanted to look like a pansy.\n\nYou found a pink ribbon, and wore it with pride.\n\nI remember how you would defend me when I was bullied.  \n\"Just give him a shove, she'll pop right out to help!\"  \nYou made it a game for them; they hit me, just to see you react.  \n\"Why does she have to embarrass me like this?\"  \nI never wanted to look like a coward.\n\nYou licked my wounds, and expected to be praised.\n\nI remember being stood-up by my date for the prom.  \n\"As if she would actually go out with someone like me!\"  \nYou gave me more than a comforting hug; I was afraid, of what might come next.  \n\"Don't you know that what you are doing is disgusting and wrong?\"  \nI never wanted to look like a pervert.\n\nYou cried in your sleep, and awoke a different person.\n\nI remember filling my life with school, work, and more work.  \n\"I will become successfull, no matter what it takes!\"  \nYou tried to stay close to me; I pushed you away, any way I could.  \n\"Haven't you noticed that I don't have time for you anymore?\"  \nI never wanted anything more than a normal life.\n\nYou handed me your ball, and I deactivated it for you.\n\nI remember lying exhausted in my bed, barely making ends-meet.  \n\"Is this my normal life, or was I living it before?\"  \nI bought a doll shaped like you; I added a ribbon, and clutch it in bed.  \n\"I am a pansy, I am a coward, I am a pervert, and I need you more than ever!\"  \nI never wanted to feel this cold.\n\nI swallow all of the pills, and pray you can forgive me.\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Odds, Ends, and April 1st's","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/198138-pursuit.json"}}