# When I see you Once more...

Author: MyOwnParasite
Tags: Crime, Depression, Poetry, Redemption, Regret, Remorse, anxiety, guilt, hope, sadness

#15 of Poetry, both old and new

A poem I wrote describing my depression. A year ago I caught a case for attempting to steal from a car, and pulling a gun on someone. Yeah... even I make serious mistakes. But the aggravated assault charge is going to be dropped, and I'll likely serve probation for attempted robbery of a motor vehicle. Thankfully it's a misdemeanor, and not the felony they wanted to charge me with... I wrote this one the day before court on March 20th. My last court date is next month on May 8th. Wish me luck and forgiveness... that's all I have the right to ask.
--C.

There's an ocean,  
Underneath me,  
And a thought that  
Can defeat me,  
  
O, I'll cry,  
When I see you  
Once more...  
  
There's a name,  
I'm so ashamed,  
I can't make it,  
I'm to blame.  
  
O, I'll cry  
When I see you  
Once more...  
  
All the things  
That I've done,  
There's no battles  
That I've won,  
  
O, I'll cry  
When I see you  
Once more...  
  
Inside I'm still dying,  
Outside, I'm  
Still trying,  
There's no one  
To hold open doors!  
  
No lying , I'm crying,  
My blood  
Won't hit the floor;  
  
But I'll cry,  
When I see you  
Once more...  
  
I've got friends,  
Til the end,  
But no moments  
I can rend,  
  
There's nothing  
But something  
I adore!  
  
Such a moment  
Just a moment,  
My atonement,  
I abhor,  
  
But I'll cry  
When I see you  
Once more!

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