{"sf1_id":1976886,"sf2_id":"dmWQNEv1","title":"Into oblivion","author":"Vulpineru","words":185,"posted_at":"2023-04-16T13:49:00.000Z","tags":["Poetry"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/1976886-into-oblivion","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/dmWQNEv1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/a5/b5/a5b5cc29-ceff-44d3-9247-2999500c1a97","description":"#1 of My Poetry or rather my feelings\n\nDo keep in mind, i'm not suicidal at this moment and i have had those thoughts but ive brought myself back from that. I'm working my ass off every single day. I really want to feel that i am worth it. Like i'm not a worthless shit that no one wants around. and i don't understand. I have good things about me. but i guess i'm just too fucking lame and other shit. Eitherway, this poem is just a bit of venting. the root of the issue is my brothers but i'm not gonna get into that. I hope you all somewhat enjoy this.\nI'm also starting a special folder for all my poetry that i upload onto sofurry.\nAlright i've reach max mental capacity,\nLaters","content":"So tired, am I.\n\nGoing along the beaten path\n\nTo an end that I have no idea what is\n\nI try not to seek it\n\nInstead I try to enjoy\n\nWhat life I do have\n\nI work, I sleep, that's it\n\nI wish I could do more\n\nYet I have no one to share with\n\nI desperately want to believe\n\nBut I keep being let down\n\nI know I've made mistakes\n\nI'm working hard to make those amends.\n\nI'm working hard trying to forgive myself for what I have done\n\nYet Here I am tittering on the edge of oblivion\n\nTo drop into the eternal abyss\n\nNever to be heard from again\n\nHere my final wonder.\n\nIf I were to disappear\n\nWould anyone care\n\nWould anyone cry\n\nWould anyone actually come looking for me\n\nAgain here I am, looking down into oblivion\n\nI look back and see a light\n\nTrying desperately to get my attention\n\nIt's a warm light, full of things I knew\n\nI reach out to grasp it\n\nYet I felt my foot slip\n\nAnd I fell into oblivion\n\nWithout a sound.\n\nGone\u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n  \n\n"}