{"sf1_id":197893,"sf2_id":null,"title":"Slice of Life","author":"LillyOpossum","words":731,"posted_at":"2010-11-28T06:19:00.000Z","tags":["Emotional","Real Life","Wolf","life","trans"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/197893-slice-of-life","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/197893","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=197893\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"","content":"\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; The hybrid was lying in bed, it was around seven am.\u0026nbsp; The wolfcat's eyes explored over the text of the pages of a book, who's cover read Clive Barkers Damnation Game.\u0026nbsp; Blackish grey paws flipping [ages, from the first to the current page, twenty seven.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;With a yawn escaping the wolfcat's blackish grey muzzle, he, or as she preferred to be called.\u0026nbsp; The wolfcat is just your average transgender.\u0026nbsp; A female in mind, heart, and soul, but all sealed in a male's body.\u0026nbsp; One that on its best days, she tolerated, and on her worst, she hated.\u0026nbsp; But as long as she had been living with this, six years or so, one grows 'numb' to some things.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;Even in her younger years, she didn't just fit into her gender.\u0026nbsp; All through her middle school years, she could be found with the girls, sitting around, talking, drawing, or playing with the other girls hair and fur.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;Then through the darker, harsher years of high school.\u0026nbsp; She never found herself on the sports field, but on the side lines, her eyes drawn to the males and her mind wondering why she was having such exciting thoughts.\u0026nbsp; But all of that was just the start.\u0026nbsp; She wasn't popular or anything close.\u0026nbsp; I mean she had her friends, but more enemies than allies.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;The enemies that she had were relentless.\u0026nbsp; The assaults and attacks ranged from just words and name calling to down right physical attacks.\u0026nbsp; She would fight back, but she wasn't a fighter.\u0026nbsp; She was just under average, she wasn't frail, but she wasn't fit. \u0026nbsp;  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;All of this, blinded with the fact that she was coming to the realization that she wasn't attracted to females, like a boy her age should be.\u0026nbsp; On more that one occasion she came within a few steps of killing herself.\u0026nbsp; She would see it as her only way out, her only way to get peace.\u0026nbsp; But something would always stop her, and she never really figured it out.\u0026nbsp; If it was her few friends, her family or what, but it kept her going.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;Over the stretch from being fifteen, she always had thoughts and dreams right up until now, at the tender age of twenty one.\u0026nbsp; The dreams came first, and they were always the same.\u0026nbsp; Ones where she was living a dream life of hers as a female or in some cases the dream would start with her as a he, and through some magic or event would transform into a girl.\u0026nbsp; Little did the wolfcat know, but dreams are the sleeping mind's way of solving problems of the waking world.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;Next came the thoughts and the full on fantasies.\u0026nbsp; The thoughts started simple, just little thoughts of what it would be like to be a female, right\u0026nbsp; to the\u0026nbsp; full on fantasies about living and being a female.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;Sadly her min, scared by the hell that she had to ender at school, just for not fitting in.\u0026nbsp; She thought that shed be killed.\u0026nbsp; Growing up in a southern Baptist family didn't help.\u0026nbsp; So with all that she suppressed then, the thoughts and wished of being a female, trying to tell her self that it was wrong, that she was a boy, and nothing more.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;So up until a short time before her recent twenty first birthday she denied and hid it.\u0026nbsp; Secretly indulging in her fantasy over the Internet, role playing as a female.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;Only a few days before that faithfully day, she started feeling depressed.\u0026nbsp; More so than she had in her young life.\u0026nbsp; It was then that she decided that it was time to do something.\u0026nbsp; She made an appointment with a\u0026nbsp; local therapist.\u0026nbsp; Before the visit she came out to her mom.  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;The whole event went well, better than she thought.\u0026nbsp; Her over active mind telling her that she would be kicked out, or worse, but that didn't happen.\u0026nbsp; Her mom was happy that she was going about this the right way.\u0026nbsp; Mind you, like with the girl's sexuality she accepted it, and still loved her, but she didn't approve of it.\u0026nbsp; The wolfcat was happy that her mom, friends and mates accepted her.\u0026nbsp; The girl had so much to look forward to, and she really just wanted to burry her past in the silent depths of her mind.\n\n  \n  \n\n"}