{"sf1_id":208680,"sf2_id":"3egdNoMm","title":"The truth in the clouds","author":"Lwolfeh","words":732,"posted_at":"2011-01-01T00:27:00.000Z","tags":["Depression","Dragon","Gay","Love","Male","Pain","Poem","Real Life","Wolf","cold","crying","howl","life","sadness"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/208680-the-truth-in-the-clouds","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/3egdNoMm","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/b8/43/b843787c-b7e3-43a6-b2ec-f2a983cc5e10","description":"","content":" **The truth in the clouds...**\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI gaze into my lovers eyes,\n\nsmiling,\n\nas he gazes back at me,\n\nblushing,\n\nasking myself how this angel could want an omega such as me...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nnot a month after,\n\nI come back to see a tear stained note on the table,\n\na cold shiver running up my spine.\n\nI take the note,\n\npaws shaking,\n\nand immediately,\n\ntears stream down my face,\n\nsoaking into my fur...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI throw it aside, and fall to my knees,\n\nletting out a howl of sorrow for all to be heard,\n\na thousand daggers piercing my heart,\n\nand for all those who hear the howl,\n\na chill runs up their spine...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nThey know that this day, a wolf has lost his mate...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI'm going crazy,\n\nfeeling like life itself is out to get me,\n\neverywhere I turn,\n\na trigger that shoots painful memories through me;\n\nI wish with every breath that this is but a dream...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nYet I pinch myself over and over, never waking up,\n\nthe pinch but a drop of water in the vast sea that is my misery...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nHe worries for me,\n\nI tell him not to worry,\n\nthat I am fine...\n\nmy heart urges for me to scream out my love for him,\n\nbut my head tells me that if I truly love him, I shall let him go...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI watch him walk away,\n\ntears in his eyes;\n\nwe both know its for the best...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI lose him from sight,\n\nonly to fall once more to my knees crying,\n\nwishing it all away,\n\nwishing to turn back time,\n\nwishing to disappear...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nOh life why do you hate me so?\n\nI wish for the cold, dark embrace of the deaths hand,\n\nyet my friends hold on,\n\nhoping to keep what is left of this shadow...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nBlade in my paw,\n\ntears in my eyes,\n\nblood in my fur...\n\nThe new year approaches,\n\nthe explosions of fireworks drowning out the howls,\n\nslowly, but surely, life drains from me...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nShakily, i hold a paw to my chest,\n\nblood covers my paw,\n\nshining a crimson red in the moonlight,\n\nwith my last breath, i whisper \"i'm sorry...\"\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI fall to the floor,\n\nlaying in a pool of my own blood,\n\nthe last thing i see...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI lay up here,\n\nlooking down from the clouds,\n\nmonths have passed,\n\ni watch my friends,\n\nThey grieve,\n\nwishing for my return,\n\nsomething that cannot be done...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI too, wish to return, to see my friends one more time,\n\nto talk to them,\n\nlaugh with them,\n\ncry with them,\n\nexperience what life throws at us...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nAnd to have one last moment with the one I love;\n\nto tell him I love him,\n\nto feel his soft paws against my fur,\n\nto gaze upon his beauty,\n\nto gaze upon the stars, arms and wings wrapped tightly around him...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nAs I look down, I see him,\n\nthe beautiful wolf I once knew,\n\nin the scaled arms of his true love;\n\nsmiling, they look perfect together...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI imagine myself in his arms,\n\none last time,\n\nin my wolves loving embrace,\n\nI feel a cold tickle run up my spine,\n\ncrawling upwards,\n\nits every touch expanding over me,\n\nnumbing me, feeling nothing more but a cold lonliness,\n\nI let go of love, to forget what I lost;\n\nit crawls up my chest;\n\nI let go of hope, to ease the pain;\n\nit slithers up my neck, as I look upwards into the night sky;\n\nI let go of my memories, to slip away;\n\nthe last few glimpses of light disappearing from my eyes,\n\nmy love the last thing i see;\n\nI collapse to the ground, feeling as if a sword has been rammed through me,\n\nI thrash and writhe, pain coursing through every fibre,\n\nchoking, they stab into me,\n\nA blood curdling howl is let out,\n\nthe last thing I whisper,\n\nI love you...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nthey found it,\n\nthe soul...\n\nthey jab at it,\n\nstab it,\n\nkilling any trace of my existance,\n\nleaving nothing;\n\nI fade away,\n\ni reside no longer in this plain of existence...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nHe wakes up,\n\nwas it a nightmare?\n\nDid he truly hear that scream?\n\nImprobable,\n\nimpossible...\n\nHe lays down, falling asleep, unaware of the truth that lies in the clouds...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n(Based on a real story)\n\n  \n  \n\n"}