# I Swear I’ll Bring You A Rose Next Year

Author: Apolarbear17
Tags: Circumstances, Family, Graveyard, Grief, Heavy Subjects, Reflection, Venting Poetry, flowers, hope, regrets, return

This was essentially the last poem of the year at the time I wrote it. It’s about grief, regrets and unfortunate circumstances. Was reflecting on this moment from a trip I took to DR in the same month I finished this. At the time I had hoped getting this out would ensure more positivity in the coming year. How that played out isn’t relevant to this poem itself. Originally posted this in December 2022.

I Swear I'll Bring You A Rose Next Year&nbsp;

&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;By: A.X. Bueno&nbsp;&nbsp;

I&nbsp; was hoping to finally find you&nbsp;

This was the first time in a while we truly tried

It's been a few years past a decade since you tragically died

But despite all that time I've still never actually visited your grave&nbsp;

I wish I could say that there's a good reason and I've tried hard to fix that but it'd only be a false save

The simply facts are that I didn't know you well enough in life and neither did mom&nbsp;

Still we had time this trip to try and find you and I was hoping that would be some kind of balm

In regards to only meeting you a handful of times&nbsp;

All but one of which is a blur which has always been a surreptitious sadness for me

To not only barely know you but to not even know where you now eternally rest feels like a crime&nbsp;

I was hoping to finally be able to give some sort of goodbye as I took a knee

We came close, we tried hard to find you because you're important family&nbsp;

I was going to lay down a rose, we'd all say our peace and then be on our way&nbsp;

But it's been such a long time and we weren't fortunate enough to find you that day

And we also had other places to be and another member to visit and give fonder farewells&nbsp;

For we knew him better thanks to how things were but there's a lot that tragedy alone won't dispel

I wish things had been better and that I had known you more but I can't let that be all that dwells&nbsp;

I had hoped that we could find where you're buried to at least leave a flower&nbsp;

And that would help thoughts like that fade but our trip isn't long and we only have so many hours&nbsp;

So we left the cemetery and I felt a bit defeated but I know soon enough we'll be back here  
But I swear I'll bring you a rose, maybe even a whole bouquet of flowers when we return next year

Source: https://sofurry.com/s/dePVvgqn