{"sf1_id":217553,"sf2_id":"ejY09qG1","title":"Hope and Dreams part 17","author":"Crownedclown13","words":1833,"posted_at":"2011-01-29T05:19:00.000Z","tags":["Bear","Character Development","Depression","Dog","Fox","Highschool","M/M","Wolf","secret sin"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/217553-hope-and-dreams-part-17","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/ejY09qG1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/cb/db/cbdb3e94-63ba-4a69-8c13-80c699523e9b","description":"#17 of h+D","content":"i know it kills you guys but i have to put this up early :/ sorry, i know how much you guys love to wait around in wonder, but i wont be able to post stories tomarrow or sunday, so ill do it now, and i may or may not be able to reply to comments so if i dont respond as fast as inormally do im sorry :P\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nso here we go!!! the shitstorm countinues again!!!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nMr. Cowell and Mr. Vector sat at the bottom of the stairs, glaring up at Squall and Isaac with a calm fury.\u0026nbsp; Thier eyes screamed disappointment towards the two, and an anger towards Squall.\u0026nbsp; Isaac stood stunned, holding his robe together, only the sound and feeling of his heart in his throat to show that time hadn't stopped.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nMr. Cowell made the first sound, ending the dream-like silence.\u0026nbsp; \"Isaac.\u0026nbsp; Get some clothes on and head out to my car outside, the adults have some things to discuss\".\u0026nbsp; He said adults with a certain venom that startled Isaac, but didn't keep him from resisting.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Squall didn't do anything wrong, it's perfectly legal\".\u0026nbsp; He defended his mate, clinging to his larger arm.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Isaac don't fight us\".\u0026nbsp; Mr. Vector added, sounding halfway bored.\u0026nbsp; \"We want to make sure you're Ok and in the best....\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"I'm fine!\".\u0026nbsp; Isaac interrupted.\u0026nbsp; \"We're fine!.\u0026nbsp; Just leave us alone!\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Isaac!\".\u0026nbsp; Mr. Cowell growled with such energy and anger, Isaac literally lost the ability to stand, and sat on the stairs, officially weakened. \"Don't fight with me; I've had a very trying day.\u0026nbsp; Get in the car\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIsaac sat teary eyed on the stairs.\u0026nbsp; His afterglow was seriously dimming, the weight of the situation setting in.\u0026nbsp; They were trying to split him from Squall.\u0026nbsp; They were an abnormal relationship for sure, but it was true love.\u0026nbsp; Any moment now Squall would stop them though, so it wasn't that big a deal, just a downer....\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIsaac waited, not able to take his eyes off of Mr. Cowell's death glare for a minute.\u0026nbsp; Any second now, and second and Squall would set this right.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nBut he didn't.\u0026nbsp; Isaac was only greeted by silence.\u0026nbsp; He managed to look up at Squall, the fox couldn't even meet his eyes.\u0026nbsp; \"Do what they say Isaac, we do need to talk\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIsaac was stunned. \"Squall...?\".\u0026nbsp; He grabbed his paw, determined not to let go.\u0026nbsp; \"What if they take me away?.\u0026nbsp; I don't want to go.\u0026nbsp; I don't want to leave you\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nSquall shook off the hand, still not meeting his eyes.\u0026nbsp; \"Squall...please look at me.\u0026nbsp; I love you.\u0026nbsp; Don't let them take me please!\".\u0026nbsp; Isaac could feel his breath quicken with panic and doubt.\u0026nbsp; Had he been wrong about Squall?.\u0026nbsp; No.\u0026nbsp; That wasn't true, Squall loved him back.\u0026nbsp; They physically pleased each other, that had to count for something.\u0026nbsp; Right?.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nRight?.....it....it had too....\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nMr. Vector stood up and walked to the stairs.\u0026nbsp; \"I got him Arron, you deal with Squall, you're the one who needs to yell at him\".\u0026nbsp; Again he sounded bored, but patted the bears shoulder.\u0026nbsp; \"Don't hurt him okay?.\u0026nbsp; It won't look good if you beat him in his house after entering unannounced and they found him naked\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIt was supposed to be a joke, but no one was in a laughing mood.\u0026nbsp; Will reached for Isaac's paw, but instead the boy just shook his head, shock, confusion and sorrow written all over his face.\u0026nbsp; \"Isaac, here, I'll give you the keys.\u0026nbsp; I can't drive you anywhere if you don't give them back.\u0026nbsp; Just come out to the car\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIsaac still shook his head, staring at the keys like they offended his very being. \"This talk pertains to me too.\u0026nbsp; I have every right to be here!\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Just go Isaac\".\u0026nbsp; Squall said, surrendering.\u0026nbsp; \"I'll see what I can do\".\u0026nbsp; He finally looked at Isaac, his eyes filled with resignation.\u0026nbsp; Isaac knew he wouldn't put up a fight, and the very idea shook his core with pain and anguish.\u0026nbsp; Re-opening the wounds of loneliness that had just closed, throwing salt onto them.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nFucking hope....Motherfucking God Damn HOPE!!.\u0026nbsp; Why did this always happen when he chose to let it?!.\u0026nbsp; It was always poor little Isaac.\u0026nbsp; Anyone takes a chance and they win big, he takes a step and he crashes to the cruel earth with a sickening thud.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Squall......You.....You Weak Chicken-Shit Son-of-a-bitch!!!\".\u0026nbsp; Isaac didn't grab the keys, but he stormed passed Mr. Cowell, noting a grin on his face as he passed.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nWhy?.\u0026nbsp; Why was Issac so damn......unlucky; unlucky to find the dead end relationships.\u0026nbsp; Not only that, but the ones that hurt.\u0026nbsp; He'd play the lottery, but his luck would turn a win into a car crash on the way to the reclaims office.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Why?\".\u0026nbsp; Isaac asked no one in particular, feeling the night air on his damp fur.\u0026nbsp; \"Why does this shit always happen to me....\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nHe turned to look at the house, anger rising in his throat.\u0026nbsp; \"I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING I HAD!!!\".\u0026nbsp; He yelled, hoping it hurt Squall to hear it, so he yelled louder.\u0026nbsp; \"EVERYTHING!!!!\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nHe collapsed on the ground in the nights cool air.\u0026nbsp; Had he cared enough to notice the temperature at the moment he would've been cold.\u0026nbsp; His tears fell onto the driveway, sitting in the shadow of the large house.\u0026nbsp; None of it mattered though.\u0026nbsp; He was so alone.\u0026nbsp; So painfully and agonizingly alone.\u0026nbsp; The world seemed to fade around him, his attention to any detail disappeared, his mind putting his attention towards the sex.\u0026nbsp; Towards something he'd done wrong?.\u0026nbsp; It had to be him.... Right?.......It was all his fault.\u0026nbsp; He couldn't just be straight.\u0026nbsp; He couldn't have hidden his tendencies?.\u0026nbsp; He couldn't just accept he would be alone forever and ever and stop tempting himself??.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nMr. Vector walked out with the bag that held his clothes.\u0026nbsp; It didn't matter, clothed or not he was un-loved and alone now.\u0026nbsp; Isaac had left Vincent and Nathan due to their comparisons.\u0026nbsp; His mother couldn't open her eyes to see him.\u0026nbsp; Squall was a low life piece of shit.\u0026nbsp; And Isaac was the one who had been hurt by them all.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Isaac, you know we're gonna take you home right?\".\u0026nbsp; Mr. Vector asked, putting the bag in his car.\u0026nbsp; \"We've known Squall a long time.\u0026nbsp; He has some issues he can't control.\u0026nbsp; I'm very sorry you of all people got swept up in his antics\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIsaac grinned, only snapping too at mention of the fox.\u0026nbsp; \"You say it like he did something only halfway wrong.\u0026nbsp; He fucking took my virginity.\u0026nbsp; No, I GAVE him my virginity\".\u0026nbsp; He sniffed. \"And just because he was there.\u0026nbsp; I'm such a whore\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"No!!\".\u0026nbsp; Mr. Vector said, lifting him into the car like a child.\u0026nbsp; \"None of this is your fault\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Yes it is, I agreed to it.\u0026nbsp; I let it happen cause I can't just accept the fact I'm destined to be alone\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"But he offered to a broken child who's been through more already then many will go through in their entire lives\".\u0026nbsp; He guided Isaac into the car.\u0026nbsp; \"And you are not alone.\u0026nbsp; You are loved by many Isaac.\u0026nbsp; We came didn't we?\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIsaac fell silent as the car revved to life.\u0026nbsp; He watched with empty eyes as they pulled away from the house.\u0026nbsp; \"How did you even know I was here?\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Arron called the police earlier then intended.\u0026nbsp; You were released to Squall.\u0026nbsp; The bigger question is how did Squall know you were in jail?\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nThat thought hadn't even occurred to Isaac, but at the moment he didn't give two shits about Squall sources.\u0026nbsp; What he wanted more than anything right now, was be home in HIS house, with HIS dysfunctional life, and HIS problems, with HIS car, and HIS friends.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nHe started to tear up again.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nVincent, Nathan, can you ever forgive me?.\u0026nbsp; Even though I don't deserve it......\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nArron watched Will leave with some clothes for Isaac, his rage bubbling down a little now that Isaac had left, but not much.\u0026nbsp; He was so furious with Squall.\u0026nbsp; Sure he couldn't blame him personally, his imbalances were tricky to handle.\u0026nbsp; But this shit didn't just happen.\u0026nbsp; It was a plan, even if unintentional.\u0026nbsp; It was complex and had plenty of ways to keep the boy as innocent as possible.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nHe got to see Will again though;\u0026nbsp; They hadn't had the chance to talk since their high school graduation.\u0026nbsp; Hell, Arron hadn't even known he'd moved back into town, but listening to two people having sex above you wasn't the ideal situation for a reunion.\u0026nbsp; Especially when your conversation involved your possibly gay son, you didn't know was gay.\u0026nbsp; No, this was definitely not in Arron's top five days.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nSquall had gotten dressed into more than a robe as to Arron's request.\u0026nbsp; They sat on the couches, Squall obviously avoiding Arron's gaze.\u0026nbsp; He looked so ashamed, Arron almost thought to go easy on him.\u0026nbsp; If it wasn't for his son, and what he'd to Isaac.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"So how's this gonna go?\".\u0026nbsp; Squall asked, finally looking up.\u0026nbsp; \"We can't undo the past, so what's the big bad bears plans?\".\u0026nbsp; It wasn't venomous, but it was taunting, only rekindled Arron's anger.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Don't taunt me!.\u0026nbsp; You know you're as mad at yourself as I am at you\".\u0026nbsp; He took a pause.\u0026nbsp; \"What were you thinking Squall?.\u0026nbsp; This isn't like you; you avoid getting close to anyone, just so this didn't happen.\u0026nbsp; You live in the middle of nowhere, alone, not even getting to close to me after.....after what happened\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nSquall seemed to recoil at the mention of the event, he crossed his arms and pulled in.\u0026nbsp; \"Yeah....but Arron....He made me feel so.......Whole.\u0026nbsp; To see his face so happy...\".\u0026nbsp; He looked up at his friend. \"I know that's not a real excuse, but that's my reason.\u0026nbsp; He's seen me in my darkest moments, and still treated me as......\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"As what?\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"A person Arron\".\u0026nbsp; Squall seemed to regain some power.\u0026nbsp; \"Face it, after I totally fucked up with Patti......Not even you look at me the same, and it's been so long\". He had tears in his eyes, but he was angry.\u0026nbsp; \"You're my friend, and a damn good one, but I'm so lonely. I can't do it anymore Arron\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIt was Arron's turn to be shocked.\u0026nbsp; \"I would never make you feel like that.\u0026nbsp; Squall, come on you know I'm all for getting you out of this hole.\u0026nbsp; It's up to you to leave\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nSquall laughed.\u0026nbsp; \"Yeah, but if I leave you'd be on me like a hawk.\u0026nbsp; I'd feel claustrophobic.\u0026nbsp; Constantly reminded of that screw up\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nArron looked at him hard.\u0026nbsp; \"And fucking your son makes you feel better?\".\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"h+D","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/216894-hope-and-dreams-part-16.json","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/218672-hope-and-dreams-part-18.json"}}