{"sf1_id":2176763,"sf2_id":"7ejG2N7m","title":"Reminiscing On Lost Extra Time","author":"Apolarbear17","words":234,"posted_at":"2024-09-09T12:02:38.000Z","tags":["Accommodations","Adult Life","Disability Pride Month","Doubts","Extra Time","Poetry","Reflection","Reminiscing About The Past","School","Speed","Time Gone By","autism","expectations","present","stress"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/2176763-reminiscing-on-lost-extra-time","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/7ejG2N7m","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/a1/77/a177a40f-1827-4c4a-9b2b-712296390100","description":"Finished writing this within the last two days of Disability Pride Month last year. A poem reminiscing on an accommodation I used to get in school and the adjustment to a world that doesn’t typically give it. Originally posted in July 2023.","content":"Reminiscing On Lost Extra Time\n\n \n\n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;By: A.X. Bueno\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\n \n\nYou remember back in school when they gave you extra time\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nTo take tests and such\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nBack then it felt off\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nLike it was really too much\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nYou've gotta be quicker than that\n\n \n\nKeep up with the other kids\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nYou don't need this special treatment\n\n \n\nSurely you're too capable to need that much time\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nBut looking back it was a valuable thing you took for granted\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nBecause adjusting to life without it has been a bit of an uphill climb\n\n \n\nAnd definitely not an easy one as adult life tends to move fast\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nYou're left feeling self-conscious about your speed and what it could broadcast\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nYou feel like you're constantly compensating and too slow\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nSome will tell you you actually move too quick though\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nNo matter your speed it sometimes feels like you still can't win\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nSpeed up or slow down every action a cycle of doubt that begins again\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nThat can be alleviated by those who seem to understand\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nOr your own efforts meeting other's demands\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nBut even still that extra time is a luxury you don't often get\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nWhich can be stressful but you adapt as best you can\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nBecause you've got to keep trying in a world that's in its own ways set\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nAnd reminds you frequently and conversely it has not adapted to people like you yet\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;"}