# Reminiscing On Lost Extra Time

Author: Apolarbear17
Tags: Accommodations, Adult Life, Disability Pride Month, Doubts, Extra Time, Poetry, Reflection, Reminiscing About The Past, School, Speed, Time Gone By, autism, expectations, present, stress

Finished writing this within the last two days of Disability Pride Month last year. A poem reminiscing on an accommodation I used to get in school and the adjustment to a world that doesn’t typically give it. Originally posted in July 2023.

Reminiscing On Lost Extra Time

 

&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;By: A.X. Bueno&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;

 

 

You remember back in school when they gave you extra time&nbsp;

 

To take tests and such&nbsp;

 

Back then it felt off&nbsp;

 

Like it was really too much&nbsp;

 

You've gotta be quicker than that

 

Keep up with the other kids&nbsp;

 

You don't need this special treatment

 

Surely you're too capable to need that much time&nbsp;

 

But looking back it was a valuable thing you took for granted&nbsp;

 

Because adjusting to life without it has been a bit of an uphill climb

 

And definitely not an easy one as adult life tends to move fast&nbsp;

 

You're left feeling self-conscious about your speed and what it could broadcast&nbsp;

 

You feel like you're constantly compensating and too slow&nbsp;

 

Some will tell you you actually move too quick though&nbsp;

 

No matter your speed it sometimes feels like you still can't win&nbsp;

 

Speed up or slow down every action a cycle of doubt that begins again&nbsp;

 

That can be alleviated by those who seem to understand&nbsp;

 

Or your own efforts meeting other's demands&nbsp;

 

But even still that extra time is a luxury you don't often get&nbsp;

 

Which can be stressful but you adapt as best you can&nbsp;

 

Because you've got to keep trying in a world that's in its own ways set&nbsp;

 

And reminds you frequently and conversely it has not adapted to people like you yet&nbsp;

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Source: https://sofurry.com/s/7ejG2N7m