{"sf1_id":2200571,"sf2_id":"ve3MybZn","title":"If It Was Ever In Sight","author":"Apolarbear17","words":206,"posted_at":"2024-11-15T03:43:37.000Z","tags":["Abstract","Poetry","Self Doubt","venting"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/2200571-if-it-was-ever-in-sight","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/ve3MybZn","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/60/44/6044ce52-4a5b-4959-9dcd-5237f4114b10","description":"When I wrote this it was capturing the feelings of the first half of the month and also was the first vent poem I had written in a while. At the time things seemed like they were getting better but lately I’m not so sure of that so this poem goes right back to being relevant to my mood. Originally posted this in July 2024","content":"\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; If It Was Ever In Sight\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;By: A.X. Bueno\n\n \n\n \n\nYou have a broad idea of when it began\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nWhen you felt yourself start slipping\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nWhen everything you did started becoming more at risk of going wrong\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nMore mistakes became noticeable and you start to wonder what's going on here\n\n \n\nIt's not like you've never slipped up before but something's different these days\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nYou're not sure when it started or how\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nBut suddenly it's hitting you all at once right now\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nThe accumulation of stress, extra burdens given and doubts hit you hard\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nAs it all catches up with you as you relax and slow down\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nTry to regain your grasp on things\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nAs you feel like you only barely missed a potential breakdown\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nAt this point you're not sure where your edge really is\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nYou wonder if you've passed it or if it was ever really there at all\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nMaybe it'll come back within sight\n\n \n\nAll you can do sometimes is just wait and see\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nAnd try to minimize whatever damage you might unintentionally do\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nSeeing if your belief that there's something you've been lacking lately\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nIs it all\u0026nbsp;in your head or is it true.\u0026nbsp;  \n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;"}