# If It Was Ever In Sight

Author: Apolarbear17
Tags: Abstract, Poetry, Self Doubt, venting

When I wrote this it was capturing the feelings of the first half of the month and also was the first vent poem I had written in a while. At the time things seemed like they were getting better but lately I’m not so sure of that so this poem goes right back to being relevant to my mood. Originally posted this in July 2024

&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; If It Was Ever In Sight&nbsp;

 

&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;By: A.X. Bueno

 

 

You have a broad idea of when it began&nbsp;

 

When you felt yourself start slipping&nbsp;

 

When everything you did started becoming more at risk of going wrong&nbsp;

 

More mistakes became noticeable and you start to wonder what's going on here

 

It's not like you've never slipped up before but something's different these days&nbsp;

 

You're not sure when it started or how&nbsp;

 

But suddenly it's hitting you all at once right now&nbsp;

 

The accumulation of stress, extra burdens given and doubts hit you hard&nbsp;

 

As it all catches up with you as you relax and slow down&nbsp;

 

Try to regain your grasp on things&nbsp;

 

As you feel like you only barely missed a potential breakdown&nbsp;

 

At this point you're not sure where your edge really is&nbsp;

 

You wonder if you've passed it or if it was ever really there at all&nbsp;

 

Maybe it'll come back within sight

 

All you can do sometimes is just wait and see&nbsp;

 

And try to minimize whatever damage you might unintentionally do&nbsp;

 

Seeing if your belief that there's something you've been lacking lately&nbsp;

 

Is it all&nbsp;in your head or is it true.&nbsp;  
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Source: https://sofurry.com/s/ve3MybZn