{"sf1_id":2206952,"sf2_id":"Jewy5kJn","title":"Can You Sleep Through Awakenings?","author":"Apolarbear17","words":274,"posted_at":"2024-12-06T01:45:58.000Z","tags":["Awakenings","LGBTQ","Maturity","Metaphor","National coming out day","Poetry","Shame","acceptance","inadequacy","venting"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/2206952-can-you-sleep-through-awakenings","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/Jewy5kJn","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/29/c0/29c070d0-a8a9-4b54-9ffb-dc11055f7763","description":"This was a poem I originally wasn’t planning to post till some nebulous point in the future but when I learned it was National Coming Out Day about two months back I decided to go ahead and post it for then even if I was a few days late for it because this just felt fitting. This is a poem about uncertainties and confusion and how it can all began to start making sense once you’ve moved past some of the shame and accepting the more out there parts of yourself. Originally posted in October 2024.","content":"\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;Can You Sleep Through Awakenings?\n\n \n\n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;By: A.X. Bueno\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\n \n\nAn awakening is something you’re supposed to feel deep within\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nIn your mind and in that tingling feeling of your skin\n\n \n\nBut what if that awakening comes and you feel nothing at all\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nOr you went on ignoring them so long so nothing bad would befall\n\n \n\nAnd thus you can’t really recall them anymore\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nWhen you’ve finally accepted yourself by venturing past that closet door\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nBut you’re still confused on whether you’re truly awake or not\n\n \n\nHow many times did you push down those stirring feelings aside\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nWhile others seem like they’ve figured it out you’re emotionally distraught\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nThat’s slightly hyperbolic but you feel so lacking in experience it’s created a divide\n\n \n\nOr so it feels, between you and others as you don’t recall these awakenings so well\n\n \n\nFor you it’s mostly a haze that you have to try to focus on and compel\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nCompel out those old feelings you couldn’t confide\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nSometimes so oblivious you weren’t even aware of what there was to hide\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nWhich is part of what allowed you to stay asleep for as long as you did\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nYou’re older now though\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nThese awakenings no longer passing by undetected on your mental grid\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nSure there’s no alarm for these kinds of things but you’ve had time to grow\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nTo recognize things you couldn’t before and be less ashamed\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nBy being wiser and more in the know\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nOf course there’s still some confusion and yet more growing to do\u0026nbsp;\n\n \n\nAwakenings are not a one time thing for in life there is always something new\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;"}