{"sf1_id":223894,"sf2_id":"AnKbdvam","title":"My Lonesome","author":"Wolfie_Jake","words":351,"posted_at":"2011-02-20T16:24:00.000Z","tags":["Depressing","Poetry","decisions"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/223894-my-lonesome","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/AnKbdvam","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/fd/d2/fdd29d62-9e10-4500-862e-ea91d7c3e3b1","description":"","content":"My Lonesome  \n  \nToday, I'm feeling quite alone  \nI'm feeling quite depressed  \nBecause this monster it has grown  \nAnd I cannot put it to rest  \n  \nBut, these hurtful feeling will not leave  \nThey hurt my mortal soul  \nAnd that gives me this numbing grief  \nTo have no one to make me whole  \n  \nI'm looking for that special one  \nThat will hold me close and near  \nThe one who's still there with the morning sun  \nthe one I'll call my dear  \n  \nI want a man who's really nice  \nwho's beauty does compare  \nSo then, my heart will be suffice  \nAs I brush my fingers through his hair  \n  \nBut, how could I act all this shallow!  \nMy face and body aren't that great  \nI see myself and I'm just hollow  \nMy mind is struggled with this debate  \n  \nAnd people tell me otherwise  \nThey tell me \"I look great!\"  \nBut how come I don't feel that way  \nThese thoughts are my demise  \n  \nThey also say \"Just give it time\"  \nBut, I don't wanna wait  \nI want someone I can call mine  \nThis loneliness I truly hate  \n  \nAnd then I look into my future  \nWith no one still to hold  \nBecause, I'm with no human creature  \nAnd that just makes me feel so cold\n\n\u0026nbsp; And how am I to find other people?  \nIf I'm too scared to say I'm gay  \nI feel like I was left in a steeple  \nLeft on my own all night and day  \n  \nBut, I don't feel this all the time  \nI smile always on my own whim  \nBut, it's as if lonelines was just a crime  \nAnd I've created this big sin!  \n  \nBut, I will hope for hapiness  \nAnd hope I find that one  \nBecause, that will give me utter bliss  \nTo know I have someone  \n  \nBut, now it's time I go to sleep  \nThis poem's kinda long  \nI close my eyes as I slowly weep  \nHoping tomorrow that I'll be strong  \n  \nSo goodnight to everyone out there  \nI'm sorry to be so sad  \nI just had to express myself to anyone who cared  \nBecause today was really bad :(  \n  \n\n"}