# My Lonesome

Author: Wolfie_Jake
Tags: Depressing, Poetry, decisions

My Lonesome  
  
Today, I'm feeling quite alone  
I'm feeling quite depressed  
Because this monster it has grown  
And I cannot put it to rest  
  
But, these hurtful feeling will not leave  
They hurt my mortal soul  
And that gives me this numbing grief  
To have no one to make me whole  
  
I'm looking for that special one  
That will hold me close and near  
The one who's still there with the morning sun  
the one I'll call my dear  
  
I want a man who's really nice  
who's beauty does compare  
So then, my heart will be suffice  
As I brush my fingers through his hair  
  
But, how could I act all this shallow!  
My face and body aren't that great  
I see myself and I'm just hollow  
My mind is struggled with this debate  
  
And people tell me otherwise  
They tell me "I look great!"  
But how come I don't feel that way  
These thoughts are my demise  
  
They also say "Just give it time"  
But, I don't wanna wait  
I want someone I can call mine  
This loneliness I truly hate  
  
And then I look into my future  
With no one still to hold  
Because, I'm with no human creature  
And that just makes me feel so cold

  And how am I to find other people?  
If I'm too scared to say I'm gay  
I feel like I was left in a steeple  
Left on my own all night and day  
  
But, I don't feel this all the time  
I smile always on my own whim  
But, it's as if lonelines was just a crime  
And I've created this big sin!  
  
But, I will hope for hapiness  
And hope I find that one  
Because, that will give me utter bliss  
To know I have someone  
  
But, now it's time I go to sleep  
This poem's kinda long  
I close my eyes as I slowly weep  
Hoping tomorrow that I'll be strong  
  
So goodnight to everyone out there  
I'm sorry to be so sad  
I just had to express myself to anyone who cared  
Because today was really bad :(

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