{"sf1_id":2260651,"sf2_id":"AnKXQVE1","title":"\"I Drink,\"  or  \"For want of a Bottle\"","author":"Cris_Fireheart","words":147,"posted_at":"2025-06-13T20:56:38.000Z","tags":["Alcohol","Depression","Poetry","Sad","Struggle","addiction","happiness","personal","truth"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/2260651-i-drink-or-for-want-of-a-bottle","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/AnKXQVE1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/4f/74/4f74db85-196a-489b-ab0f-edf96eec4fa7","description":"A poem about my alcoholism. To those who are \"true\" alcoholics like I am, (started at 15, cannot just quit cold turkey or the shakes come first, and the hallucinating and convulsions after) I write this to let you know you aren't alone. And to those who have managed to overcome this affliction, I wish you truly the best. As for me? I probably don't have too much time left, but I think I'll keep on. Sometimes it's better to have a little relief than a lot of pain I can't handle. And nobody can stand me when I'm sober; not even myself.","content":"I drink when I awaken;\n\nI drink until I sleep.\n\nI drink for what I\n\nshould forget,\n\nAnd drink for what\n\nI'll keep.\n\nI drink for all that I\n\nHave lost;\n\nI drink for what I've\n\nFound.\n\nI drink when all my\n\nFriends are here,\n\nAnd when they aren't\n\nAround.\n\nOn every morn',\n\nI have a drink,\n\nTo rouse me from\n\nMy bed,\n\nAnd every night\n\nI drink to sleep\n\nWhen I lay down\n\nMy head.\n\nI drink when life\n\nComes over me;\n\nAnd when I wish\n\nFor death.\n\nI drink because\n\nThe 'sober' me\n\nDeserves to not\n\nDraw breath.\n\nI drink when I feel\n\nHappy;\n\nAnd drink when I'm\n\nDepressed.\n\nAnd drink to calm my\n\nRacing thoughts;\n\nAllow my mind\n\nA breath.\n\nI've drank for over\n\nTwenty years;\n\nThey haven't been\n\nThe best...\n\nI'll drink for long as\n\nI am here,\n\nAnd drink until my death.","series":{"name":"Poetry, both old and new","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/2180641-a-drink-a-drink.json"}}