{"sf1_id":239640,"sf2_id":"AnKbKN0m","title":"the Hardships of Today","author":"Kael Falconvale","words":212,"posted_at":"2011-04-12T01:49:00.000Z","tags":["Depressing","Depression","Help","failing","life","lonelyness","time"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/239640-the-hardships-of-today","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/AnKbKN0m","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/23/7f/237fcf73-3f1d-4062-872e-98928e3dadfa","description":"","content":"Screaming words to the end of time,  \nFinding out that they mean nothing to me,  \nSlowly finding out that failure is my option,  \nWhy can't I work?  \nAm I broken?  \nThe things going on,  \nHurting my life in ways I can't fix,  \nI just need to realize I can do anything,  \nJust the times have changed,  \nI don't want to do anything,  \nWhy?  \nSo much is needed from me,  \nYet I can't yet do anything about it.  \n  \nWhy me?  \nWhy me, because it was never a choice for me,  \nTo never succeed in this life,  \nTo just fail like another person in hell,  \nEveryone wants me to succeed,  \nYet I feel as though I can't,  \nYet if I don't I lose everything,  \nBut why don't I care?  \n  \nLife just seems too hard for me to continue,  \nI need to learn to fend for myself in life,  \nYet my life is what's hurting me the most,  \nTime needs to just stop in its tracks so I can have it all,  \nJust the way they all wanted.  \n  \nNow I need the help more than ever,  \nBut the help that comes my way is to slow,  \nThe need for more help is needed,  \nBut none is forth coming.  \nNow I must wait to fail more..\n\n  \n  \n\n"}