{"sf1_id":254281,"sf2_id":"1pxkGQG1","title":"Never Love","author":"Lyn_Love","words":222,"posted_at":"2011-05-30T05:01:00.000Z","tags":["Other"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/254281-never-love","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/1pxkGQG1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/d4/7c/d47c8c60-ddf7-496e-9d83-72487d8218ea","description":"","content":"\u0026nbsp;\n\nOnce my guiding light\n\nThe woman I loved\n\nThe one who held my hand\n\nHas thrust me backward\n\nDeclared me to be unwanted\n\nBack into the shadows\n\nTo pay for my sins.\n\nThe sins of my devotion.\n\nOf my fear of betrayal.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nFor one thing I am glad of the darkness.\n\nYou cannot see this veil of tears\n\nThis numb feeling I cannot shake.\n\nYou cannot see me lying in bed\n\nMotionless and unfeeling because of your poison\n\nThe lethal equal to that of a cyanide capsule.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nYou cannot see me hug my knees to my chest\n\nOr close my eyes\n\nto try and hide\n\nfrom these monsters.\n\nThese demons that sing in my ear\n\nSing the words of sorrow\n\nI wish not to hear.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nThey sing their twisted lullabies\n\nOf love gone awry.\n\nThey whisper the words\n\nOver and over\n\nWith a snide undertone\n\n\"She never loved you,\n\nShe never loved you,\n\nSHE NEVER LOVED YOU\"\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI am glad you cannot see these tears\n\nI am glad that you wont get the proof\n\nThat I loved you more than air.\n\nThat I still long for you to play\n\nWith this little strand of hair.\n\nThat with each breath\n\nI wish it were my last\n\nAnd that I never again would utter the words\n\n\"I love you\"\n\n  \n  \n\n"}