{"sf1_id":303899,"sf2_id":"pnGjkogm","title":"Making the world more perfect","author":"KoriWolf","words":257,"posted_at":"2011-11-07T20:53:00.000Z","tags":["Depression","Female","Suicide","sadness"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/303899-making-the-world-more-perfect","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/pnGjkogm","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=303899\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"","content":"Making the world more perfect  \n  \nMy name is Jennifer Anne Blacksmith,  \nfourty and therefore not the youngest,  \nmany young women I cannot compete with,  \nnot filigrane, always built the strongest  \n  \nLook at the advertisment on the street  \nyoung, perfect, like this they smile at them  \nthey are the reason I have no man to meet  \nAll that matters, sex sells tells even Uncle Sam  \n  \nYou might have might have seen me in the fashion store,  \nall those, wonderful, beautiful clothing, I can't bear it  \nThe new parisian designer jeans, I just stood before  \ncrying at home over the fact I will not be able to wear it  \n  \nI am different and not what all the males expect  \nall my life, I have been laughed at, pushed around  \nI was the object on which the hate was to project  \nalways and ever the ugliest being in the crowd  \n  \nThey never care for that is to find in my soul  \nif you do not offer what are wishing for  \nthen you are pushed aside for their sexy idol  \nwho cares for values in the depth of your core?  \n  \nI have tried so hard to keep on going  \ndepression, frustation and desperation  \nthe only things which were growing  \nOkay, I got it, I am nothing for this nation!\n\n\u0026nbsp; All you young and beatiful listen to me  \nas I load this gun and do want you want me too  \njust take a moment, focus once on me so you see  \n  \nI am making this world more perfect,  \n  \nJust... for you?  \n  \n\n"}