{"sf1_id":367761,"sf2_id":"ynZM5v4m","title":"Everlasting Distractions","author":"Desolation35","words":266,"posted_at":"2012-04-20T04:29:00.000Z","tags":["Love","Secrecy","lonely"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/367761-everlasting-distractions","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/ynZM5v4m","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/cf/0a/cf0a6be4-f616-4981-b0d2-74ca5184ad27","description":"I really can't write anything creative, so this is just a vent really. Feel free to ignore it.","content":"So I have this crush...\n\nThey don't know that I adore them to the extent of love, but they know that I care about them as a really good friend. That's what I throw myself out to be. The part of which they don't know is how much more I care for them than what they think I do. If I were to tell them how I really felt, a friendship would be in jeopardy. I have known this person long enough to know how they work and what they are feeling by how they're acting.\u0026nbsp;\n\nMy heart bleeds though. I hear almost every aspect of their life when they want to talk. But what hurts most is when I am told that they like someone else. I respect their decisions enough to not intervene; let them follow a path they feel is right even though I wish they would come to me. Each day becomes slow and progressively harder to endure. I get a sense of hopelessness and un-want.\u0026nbsp;\n\nSo I sit and watch as they are blinded by their own emotions and I begin to drown in my own. I know that somewhere in the back of my head, a voice is telling me to move on. That there are many others in the world. But experience has told me that it isn't that easy. So I sit there on my pedistal in the darkness as the spotlight moves onward; it just wasn't my part to play in this script of life.\u0026nbsp;\n\nSo I have this crush...\n\nNever will our friendship be the same.\n\n  \n  \n\n"}