{"sf1_id":400549,"sf2_id":null,"title":"This damned world.... Knowing love","author":"Musica Wolfsbane","words":384,"posted_at":"2012-07-09T04:32:00.000Z","tags":["Adult","Hate","M/solo","Torture (moderate)","hope","loneliness","terror"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/400549-this-damned-world-knowing-love","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/400549","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=400549\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"I published this today to the fact that my secret is out... My family, my friends, everyone left me... I will come back stronger.... I will be back with more hope. But who can I depend on now... I am 14yrs of age, homeless and broke..... But I know I can live this out someway...","content":"Knowing love....\n\nIt changes us everyday\n\nBut my man loves me in every way\n\nFrom the good to the bad he can never disappoint\n\nA strong god loving man than He is known to appoint\n\nThe feelings I have for others have taken my life by the chest,\n\nI know that I can't be the candy of his eye alone\n\nIs that true\n\nIs that false\n\na trip down to hell\n\nNever have I heard of a Perfect Fairy tale...\n\nThe truth lies with everyone\n\nThe truth lies in you\n\nOpen your heart to yourself\n\nOpen it for yourself\n\nThe truth is for everyone...\n\nBut I have lived a lie...\n\nHow I really am doesn't show in the morning\n\nBut at the dark shades of night\n\nWhere while I slumber he is the one\n\nContaining my true heart...\n\nAway from my family\n\nThe struggles I have been through\n\nTo find myself, like I already knew\n\nWas difficult, painful, and full of denial\n\nFrom these struggles, turned my heart towards evil bile\n\nBlood really is thicker than water\n\nMy family doesn't accept my difference\n\nBut I respect theirs.....\n\nA life alone, without being happy\n\nI never would image\n\nBut first I remember when God was my image\n\nI fell away from Him, looking for my heart away from all the stress\n\nMaybe I just need some help or maybe this isn't the best for me\n\nMy family said that this is nothing but evil\n\nBut if it's true this evil keeps me sane\n\nI can express myself\n\nTo be happy like I never was before\n\nTo be where the boys are\n\nWhere I'm not all alone...\n\nI realizes that this place is a war field\n\nThe one I call home is full of battles\n\nBlacks vs. whites\n\nGay marriage vs. straights\n\nFamily vs. My Gay love life\n\nWhy do all this matter\n\nWe all are equal... or so we're told...\n\nI am always looked sideways in Memphis\n\nEverytime I hold hands with another boy of a different color\n\nSome don't know what true love is\n\nI don't want people to judge me for my skin for it'll always be mine\n\nBut being gay isn't and will never be color blind\n\nJust how I like it...\n\nWhere I can be me\n\nWith no binds attached\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n  \n\n"}