{"sf1_id":442403,"sf2_id":"keNMMpx1","title":"Seasons and Leaves","author":"Ephemeral_Dreams","words":339,"posted_at":"2012-09-29T23:20:00.000Z","tags":["Ephemeral_Dreams","M/solo","No-Yiff","Poetry","Sad","comments"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/442403-seasons-and-leaves","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/keNMMpx1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/9a/bb/9abbde9f-5d2e-4cc6-b00c-9bfb3e7b5700","description":"","content":"Seasons and Leaves\n\n-Ephemeral\\_Dreams-\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nJust as the time ticks by, each second an eternity.\n\nMust we part this way, each sound a calamity.\n\nPast haunts us as norm, reminders of the untouchable.\n\nHurt hunts us undeterred, regardless of the ensemble.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nWe try to look up, at the falling leaves.\n\nSo much like our hopes, cherished dreams.\n\nI cry to no end, down towards the sheets.\n\nNo more tears to cope, hated treats.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nAlas people leave as seasons change,\n\nhow much like the colorful leaves where they are forgotten.\n\nAfter a satisfying crunch underneath our feet, They become \u0026nbsp;no more\n\nOnly to return every year, to be crushed once again.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nDetermined to last, as before.\n\nDetrimental desires, wishing for the stars.\n\nUndermined to fast, in hope for a shore.\n\nCynical fires, \u0026nbsp;licking for the core.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nHope is a trap, Set by myself.\n\nTo bring us forward, a single step.\n\nNope is the crap, that I always hear.\n\nTo take us backward, another wrenching stab.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nPurpose unknown, reason to be alive.\n\nFear of the unknown, cowardly reason to be alive.\n\nDeath to be welcomed, alas I lack the courage.\n\nSheathe my blades, world class entourage.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nWhat meaning would each year have: immutable, unchanging years.\u0026nbsp;\n\nWhy would we struggle daily: wading through the whirling blades.\n\nWho could we lean on: Family, friends, ex-mates-Traitors.\n\nWhere should we go: Heaven, hell, purgatory-all the same.\n\nWhen might we escape, to the eternal peace if happiness be denied.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nThank you for reading again.\n\nIt's..an amalgam of my thoughts after the late events consisting of unemployment, acquiring many friends to have them leave and ignore me, as well as hopeful mates that fell through the gap that I'd created. Along with the military jargon of \"Army Strong,\" that I am not, Just...a ramble. Not sure what I should be doing, even as i know exactly what i should be doing.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n-Ephy(c)\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nDo not distribute, sell or publish any of my works without my express consent.\n\n  \n  \n\n"}