{"sf1_id":480360,"sf2_id":"rnak49Ze","title":"New Year's Resolution","author":"Ze_ev","words":369,"posted_at":"2012-12-30T22:57:00.000Z","tags":["New Years"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/480360-new-year-s-resolution","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/rnak49Ze","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/52/65/5265a85a-8dd0-4271-8dc1-72440782430d","description":"","content":"I want to do so many things, but I haven't been able to find the motivation. \u0026nbsp;I have had ample time, and I have been inspired so much, but it only lasts briefly before it goes to waste. \u0026nbsp;I feel like all my energies are going to waste, that I am becoming old too young. \u0026nbsp;Ever since I settled back down, I have succumbed to my greatest fear; becoming idle, and useless. \u0026nbsp;I'm taking a look once again at the man in the mirror, and asking him to change his ways. \u0026nbsp;This community should know just how much it has inspired, enlightened, and empowered me. \u0026nbsp;I've taken in so many good things, and I've had enough of taking; I need to finally give back, in much the same way I have given my past year in the service of others, that they may be safer, smarter, and healthier in the future. \u0026nbsp;My beloved friends, here and away, dear to my heart, now in my time of need, I have never been more glad for your company.\n\n\u0026nbsp;This year, I've decided I'm going to break out of the routine and the creative slump that I'm in. \u0026nbsp;I'm going to create freely and without inhibition. \u0026nbsp;I'm going to start drawing again, I'm going to play beautiful music, and I'm going to write myself down, for all of you. \u0026nbsp;I'm going to remove all my unhealthy influences. \u0026nbsp;I'm going to keep learning and sharing the facts of life, and what's really important. \u0026nbsp;And no matter what anyone says, I'm going to continue to be there for my friends, without whom my heart would disappear. \u0026nbsp;With your help, I'm going to move the world along to where it should be. \u0026nbsp;Then, hopefully the one who embodies this new world for me, the one who gave me this great love in the first place, my guiding light, will reveal herself.\n\nThere are things I would like to happen- I don't care if it's me that makes them happen, if I have a role in them, or if I will even live to see them happen, just so long as they happen anyway.\n\nThis is my New Year's Resolution, and 13 is my lucky number.\n\n  \n  \n\n"}