{"sf1_id":519574,"sf2_id":"3eggQk3e","title":"To Laugh Once More","author":"Ephemeral_Dreams","words":508,"posted_at":"2013-03-28T02:23:00.000Z","tags":["Compilation of sorts","M/solo","No-Yiff","Poetry"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/519574-to-laugh-once-more","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/3eggQk3e","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/51/84/5184df53-1ee6-4006-bdbe-f361c37636bf","description":"","content":" **To laugh once more.**\n\nBy Ephemeral\\_Dreams\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nThe blood red sun rises, painting the skies amber.\n\nMy beet\u0026nbsp; red irises, breaking my ties asunder.\n\nWhat binds me to this world, so dark and empty.\n\nWhat kind of pains to unfold, so stark yet temping.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nMy arms so sore, my legs clenching painfully.\n\nThe clothes that cling to me, soaked with sweat.\n\nBut why does it feel\u0026nbsp; so empty, the pain incomparable.\n\nThis nakedness I feel, despite the layered masks.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nTis time to be asleep, to escape these dreaded lands.\n\nIt's nigh\u0026nbsp; beginning of a workday, alas I have none.\n\nBut it's slumber that is my drug, my savior.\n\nThe one thing that provides me with escape, from this land of scars.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nDespite this truth, despite the lies.\n\nI can't help but wonder, where is my love yonder?\n\nI didn't ask for much: riches, fame or bitches.\n\nI don't hope for a lot, just survival and relative comfort.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nOnly to laugh once more, before my life is no more.\n\nA sonorous exclamation of my joyous emotion.\n\nWithout a single regret of weighted chains holding me down.\n\nJust to laugh one more time, to feel that unrestrained joy.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIt's not once that I cursed myself, my mind.\n\nThe all-capable device overpowering many a super computers.\n\nAlas I'd rather trade for a goldfish, shortened memories.\n\nTo truly forgive and forget. For the wounds to stay closed.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nSleep does not come, only more memories and untruths.\n\nUntil the darkness overtakes me, without a moment's notice.\n\nI wonder if this is death, how it will really be.\n\nHow will my life end, would it matter how or when?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI realize the truth, the unconquerable desire.\n\nThe only thing I want, that I'd so desired beyond all.\n\nEven above love, a mate, a warm embrace.\n\nSomething so simple, that which is so often faked.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nOnly to laugh once more, truly happy to my very core.\n\n\u0026nbsp;A joyous proclamation of my emotions.\n\nWithout a single strand of regret preventing true tranquility.\n\nJust to laugh once more, to free my strained heart.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nThe morning comes again, but a part of me is left behind.\n\nThe night passes quietly, not a whisper of thought.\n\nThese jumbled thoughts of mine, accursed memories of mine.\n\nThe ever flowing rivers of time, uncaring of the scars on my hide.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nAwait I do until that day, where I can laugh just once, truly and only.\n\nAll the pains and rainstorms will be nothing,\u0026nbsp; against the joy I will find then.\n\nAll the roads I traveled, the scars I have collected.\n\nHave all been just for that one day, one moment.\n\nOnly to laugh once more, before my life is no more.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;compilation of recent ponderings and such during the late hours after gym visits and realizing how far I'd fallen...of sorts? Again, criticisms are welcome. Thank you for reading :)\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nThe above work is Copyright to Ephemeral\\_Dreams. Do not distribute/vend without express permission from the author.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n  \n  \n\n"}