{"sf1_id":549819,"sf2_id":"WelXEEBe","title":"The bleak life of a black rose part one","author":"Serrahtheblackrose","words":979,"posted_at":"2013-06-11T20:41:00.000Z","tags":["Depression","F/F","Female","Husky","Love","Sad","Wolf","bar"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/549819-the-bleak-life-of-a-black-rose-part-one","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/WelXEEBe","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=549819\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"((I'm not exactly sure if this should be all ages are not also I'm planning on working on this for a while please give feedback any is good))","content":"I never asked for love hell I never  \nasked for a reason to live up to this point. You see I find myself to  \nbe quite worthless in fact I don't find a reason why anyone would  \ncare if I lived or died. My name is Rose I'm your worthless pile of  \nfilth that will never be loved. You see I found love is hopeless men  \nwill just thrust their javelin through your delicate flower and leave  \nyou for dead if it dares spur seeds of your youth that are born into  \nworthless beings like you. You wish they were given a better life  \nwith a better mother but I am no kind of mother.\n\nI decided to give my seeds up for  \nadoption and luckily found someone whom could grow them better then I  \ncould. They were a happy couple they took them and after they left I  \ncried as I would never know that kind of happiness and that I would  \nnever see my children ever again. Maybe I would in a couple of years  \nbut they would not recognize me or vice verse but they got a better  \nlife from it. I'm glad they wouldn't have and emotional train wreck  \nlike me a sixteen year old girl with parents who are demons and  \n'friends' who are devils well I make up the friends part since I have  \nnone.\n\nAll I ever wished for was to be strong  \nand be brave is that far to much to ask or does it become a wheezing  \nlike breath for help. I feel so alone in this world sometimes I think  \nabout ending it all. I think that would be the best solution. I wish  \nit was only that easy as I never have a private moment with the  \nrooftops and kiss the ground with my lovely corpse.\n\nThough I think it's impossible for me  \nto die at this point I already feel like a walking corpse with no  \neyes just blindly walking along a never ending path. This is the  \nsuffering of an illusion that I dare even think about. My life has no  \nmeaning at all. Nothing my life is simply an endless void of endless  \nconsequences. You see my buds have already popped and went off to a  \nbetter life I on other hand have no life.\n\nHow can a simple anthro like me handle  \nsuch annoying things like being called putrid and morbid. How can  \nsuch a bruised husky keep her beauty if nobody wants her and nobody  \nloves her. It's simple that it's so clear that all creatures hate  \nher. I soon found a reason to live I found my purpose my calling the  \nreason I'm here.\n\nOne night on a cold evening the wind  \nwas rather vigorous and roaring just usual for the season of falling  \nleaves and half alive trees with falling leaves. I was going to the  \nlesbian bar in town as I found that to be my haven where I felt loved  \nand accepted. They always let me in which was odd for a bar but  \nwhatever I found a girl my age there with beautiful long flowing  \nblonde hair and her fragrance gave me the breath of fresh air. Her  \nname was like silk and soothing lavender her body curved and slender  \nher name gave meaning to her gender her name was Serrah. Such a  \nlovely name with a lovely face her body moved with grace and she was  \nright in front of my very own face. Along with her wolfish tail and face I was in heaven and grace as I have never seen such a beautiful wolf before.\n\n\"Hello...\"I simply said my face  \ndropped almost dead from the wonderful female that uplifted my head.\n\n\"Hello...Do I know you?\"She said  \nback with her silk voice and long hair as her body said she truly  \ncared.\n\n\"Not yet.\"I said with grace  \ntrying to hide my blushing face hoping I didn't seem like such a  \ndisgrace to such a beautiful face.\n\n\"Well my name is Serrah what's  \nyours?\"Laces upon laces her face had so much graces and it never  \nlost the fact of beauty.\n\n\"My name is Rose, it's a pleasure to  \nmeet you.\"I said my face almost sweating with sweet honey dew. My  \nface burnt up like a nice warm stew. A fire was in my heart I  \ncouldn't put it out it almost made me want to shout. I held my hand  \nto meet hers to greet her presence along with everything about her.\"\n\n\"Would you like to go talk somewhere  \nbetter perhaps this place isn't the best for something like this.\"She  \nsaid back as it overwhelmed my body her voice like an angels that  \nshook my body.\n\n\"I would love too, let's go to your  \nplace if that's alright with you.\"I hoped I didn't sound far too  \ncreepy as we just met and barely knew each other I was a stranger  \nstill.\n\n\"Sure, one question though why not  \nyours?\"She said in the silence of the bar as it seemed as if time  \nstood still for us both just so the intoxicating air didn't choke us  \nboth with a heavy rope.\n\n\"My parents will know where I have  \njust been and they are not the kindest of folk.\"I said hoping that  \nI wouldn't have to go into detail of the bruises they gave me the  \nfights they had. I only wished I could have said for my place but no  \ncreature could live there without choking on the smoke of the flames  \nthat brewed within the house of hell.\n\n\"I understand, well I will lead you  \nthere I hope you won't mind my room it's a bit of a mess.\"I didn't  \nnotice but we were walking and talking she seemed to mention how we  \nwere almost there and I couldn't wait to get to know more about her.\n\n\u0026nbsp;  \n  \n  \n\n"}