{"sf1_id":605522,"sf2_id":"J1OYx6gm","title":"Punishment","author":"Alexos Drausus","words":278,"posted_at":"2013-10-22T20:34:00.000Z","tags":["Depressing","Poem","Poetry"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/605522-punishment","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/J1OYx6gm","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/df/cf/dfcfecb7-6207-4f61-b7a7-b76cddd8810c","description":"So... I did a thing. I hope it wasn't a bad thing. I hate how most everything I write comes out really depressing. This is based on a dream I keep having, so... I don't know","content":"I watch silently  \nAs I see your arms embrace him  \nAs your fingers trace the crevices of his skin  \nYour eyes follow down his breathing like a map  \nLanding down his chest to his heart  \nWhich pounds so strongly for you  \nAs mine once did, as it still does  \n  \nI feel envy   \nAs I see your lips press against his  \nAs I see you pull _him_ closer,  \ntracing them down his neck  \n  \nHis breathing increases,   \nHe clenches your shirt  \nWhispers your name  \nIgniting the flames in you of which were once mine  \n  \nI try to look away, to stop those tears breaking through the barrier  \nOf my once blind eyes,  \nBlind to what I once had  \nBlind to what would've been  \nBut I cannot   \n  \nI am the silent listener  \nChained down to this sickening chair  \nForced to revel in the pain\n\nMy heart shatters  \nAs I see you run your hands up his shirt  \nPressing your hips to his  \n  \nI scream a silent cry  \nAs I watch you lay back slow  \nAnalyzing his body  \nThe one he is to give you   \nPulling you away from me  \n  \nI know in your mind  \nYou no longer think of me  \nI know that in your heart  \nYou feel no love for me  \nNor any pain which had been caused by my doing  \n  \n\n\u0026nbsp; My soul is broken  \nAs I see you give him your love  \nI am sickened as I see his face of pleasure  \nI am ruined by my own doing  \n  \nAnd chained up to this chair I am to remain  \nBeaten by my haunting dreams   \nOf which you forget me  \n  \nServing my time of Punishment  \n  \nSeeing you love another...\n\n  \n  \n\n"}