{"sf1_id":609498,"sf2_id":"3egBWyV1","title":"Bereft can end","author":"sdgkh10","words":539,"posted_at":"2013-11-02T19:56:00.000Z","tags":["Love","Pain","Poem","Poetry","Sad","School","melancholic"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/609498-bereft-can-end","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/3egBWyV1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/c2/eb/c2eb35d0-8cab-4c14-ae13-d08cdc358a8a","description":"#2 of Poetry\n\nA poem about my life in the last three years in primary school after I moved to Denmark from Greenland","content":"Slowly it came to me, arrived like sunrise  \nWith no haste it filled my world with feelings  \nJust as I moved to this land, to my demise  \nI was tumbling, tried to find meanings\n\nI was confused  \nI was from another land  \nSaw it closed  \nFailed to make my stand\n\nI didn't know what to say or what to do  \nAs I fell into the foreign traps of loneliness  \nI tried to fill the needs with thoughts of you  \nBut I found myself lower, engulfed in sadness\n\nI was nothing  \nHe didn't see my wave  \nHeart was clutching  \nIt asked me to crave\n\nThe sun rose, I tried to reach it with force  \nThe shadow of myself devoured my anchor  \nMy inner peace began to shatter, to divorce  \nI wanted to come closer to you, wanted more\n\nI did learn  \nTried to act very strong  \nWanted to earn  \nBut it didn't go long\n\nThe forming ice inside my heart stung me  \nEven though I am filled with lovely emotions  \nBut slowly I began to think: Not meant to be  \nI never really moved from my same locations\n\nI was hurt  \nDidn't want to acknowledge it  \nI didn't alert  \nOnes who didn't see it\n\nSun reached its highest, something is not right  \nThe light shone but without the warmth I loved  \nMy sad side began to take over my eternal night  \nThe thought came; I was not wanted, unloved\n\nI faced you  \nBut was afraid of rejection  \nI loved you  \nBut I tried ridding connection\n\nMind began to submit, to bend, to surrender  \nEyes were red, flowed in endless hopelessness  \nPeople from school ignored me, didn't render  \nWhat I needed to survive my drowning in mess\n\nI was forgetting  \nWhat it meant to live  \nTo see everything  \nI really wanted to give\n\nNow I only reach the sun in my mind, dreams  \nCan only say it to you in my sleeps, burned  \nWanted to see your eyes but only saw gleams  \nYour heart began to close for me, it turned\n\nI am bleeding  \nThe ice inside scarred me  \nThey were feeding  \nI fell upon my knee\n\nThe sun went farther and farther, no return  \nMind and body began to froze, started the kill  \nI didn't, didn't tried to change it, forgot to learn  \nThat there was more than this, because I was ill\n\nOne chance left  \nTo say it to you  \nI was bereft  \nOne last thing to do\n\nInside I was nearly dead, hope held me alive  \nI cried out to the sun, which had turned afar  \nWith few words I said it, all you did was deprive  \nAll I ever received from you was The scar\n\nI was ready  \nMoments from the end  \nHeld it steady  \nBut got stopped, new friend\n\nFormer sun was gone, but new ascended  \nThe school changed to another, a new light  \nNew people descended from above, mended  \nMy heart, was nearly gone, gave new might\n\nA life will  \nI was given to improve  \nHeart to fill  \nTo heal and make it move\n\nThe new sun was lighter, warmer, better  \nHe was so friendly which I've never seen  \nI came to revelation that life does matter\n\nEven though what I have seen and been\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Poetry","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/605870-fight-of-life.json","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/687482-a-light-in-the-dark.json"}}